I guess I just need to vent a little. Today was a bad day for me. It's funny this morning I woke up and had a bad feeling, like something wasn't right with my difficult child. I was feeling pretty down, just missing her. Then low and behold I get the phone call, she called from the Residential Treatment Center (RTC), cursing, ranting and raving. "I f#$%^&g hate you, you abandoned me, you don't love me, I want nothing to do with you..... " and so on... She is mad because she doesn't want to be taken off the Concerta and she feels like I betrayed her by going along with that plan. She just doesn't see that that medication has an adverse effect on her, she is absolutely miserable on it. So after that phone call I was having my own little pitty party, until I had to put the fake smiles on and pretend I love life as I had to go to my nephew's music show at his school. His school is my difficult child's old elementary school, so I sat in the auditorium fighting back the tears, remembering when my difficult child was on that same stage playing her violin. I'm watching these kids, wondering how many of them will be going to the prom, college, getting their first cars, just doing "normal" things kid's do. I'm sitting in my seat seething with anger that my daughter won't be doing any of that "normal" stuff in her Residential Treatment Center (RTC). My heart aches for her, I want so badly to love her pain away. Life stinks!!!!!!!!!!! I will be back in that same auditorium on Friday watching my easy child son graduate Kindergarten. I'm so excited for him, he is such a wonderful little boy. It will be bitter sweet for me, as I will be feeling sad for my daughter, all over again. Anyway, just wanted to spread some of my joy. lol Sorry about all the negativity, can't see any sunshine today.