Hi! I'm new here (found this site with an MSN Live Search), and am so glad to have found you all! Our family was dumped into the abyss mid-December when difficult child DS told me if he had access to a handgun, he would "put it to my temple and pull the trigger." Wow, talk about a wakeup call! Immediately called suicide "helpline" (not much help, though); now have him in group counseling, individual counseling, caseworker meeting weekly, and parent support for husband and I. husband (step-dad) is doing his best to deal, but leaves most of the details up to me. daughter is hanging in there--I keep checking with her to make sure she's okay. DS seems to be doing better, though I can't help but wonder if this is the calm before the next storm. I, on the other hand, feel like I'm thisclose to losing it completely. Trying to keep track of all the appointments, assessments, people, agencies, paperwork, etc., is so hard! I'm scared to death I'm going to forget something, lose something, or otherwise mess up and cause us to lose our state aid. Guess my question is, am I normal to be this confused/befuddled/lost, or am I just in waaayyyy over my head?