My husband's funeral was today....it was a beautiful and fitting service for husband. During the service the priest commented that a new life begins for husband and a new life begins for myself and the tweedles. Our journey is no longer the same as husband's journey. wm was inconsolable; kt was curious, terrified & sad. Both kt & wm have asked me at least a half dozen times what happens if I die. On that note,our new journey may include moving closer to family - to a support system that includes my dad & my siblings & their spouses, my nieces & nephews. It's too soon to make any huge decisions - it's all too raw. So I sit here surrounded by plants & flowers and cannot sleep. Please please please get your advanced directives in place. I spent too much of my time advocating for husband's wishes & not enough time just being with him during his last days. Days I cannot get back. You have held me up during the last week, the last month - I could feel the "power" of the parents here surrounding me. Thank you for the prayers, the condolences & the wisdom. In turn, I offer my prayer of thanks for all of you. I hope to get off here & get some sleep - thank you all.