Heather,
I can't begin to imagine what you are feeling. Each of us fogs in our own different way. I know what I felt like at Christmas when I didn't get out of bed for 4 days - didn't care at all. It was getting bad then worse, and more worse until I just crawled in bed in a fetal position, blacked out the windows and slept 4 days. It was frustrating, awful, scary, lonely....and no one knew what to do for me either. DF tried to make me eat, laugh, cry, get angry - I think I was a click away from catatonic. No joke. The ONLY thing that made me smile or laugh the entire time was when Witz wrote she kicked her manger across the room, but she said donkey....she kicked the manger donkey across the room. Kinda like kicking some you know...and while I felt so bad for her - that made me laugh until I cried.
Take Buster for a walk.......go by yourself. Even if it's just out in the front yard.....See Pootie was MY Paxil XR. She "needed" me. I think that's why when she was stolen it made me crazy until I found her. I didn't want to add another dog, but she's just for me.....maybe Buster can be that for you.....just needs you.
I know this probably isn't your first thought - but HOW bad would things be for Wynter and Devon if YOU took a break - checked in at the hospital tonight just for a medications evaluation? I actually did that too once - and it was the BEST thing....didnt' want to - fought it the whole way there. And got so frustrated waiting for all the "sick people" but when I got my turn and told that Doctors care doctor I was falling into a deep depression - I got immediate help. IMMEDIATE. Most insurances have a co-pay of $50 for them - and THAT is worth it to me......some are even open until 9:00
Could that help you? OR DO I NEED TO DRIVE TO OHIO AND SIT IN YOUR HOUSE WITH YOUR BEAUTIFUL KIDS AND BEAUTIFUL ANIMALS and help you?
OH I'm so there in my mind -
Hugs