Well the first jail visit this time was just the same. Not much change inhim. He was not very humble at all. I looked him straight in the eye most of the time. He got my heart felt letter. He said why dont you bail me out then - the longer I sit in here the more time I will get?! He wants me to go to the pharmacy and get his last prescription of Xanax - he needs more money because the jail had taken out $32.00. He thinks he needs a paid lawyer because this one is not good enough. All this but I didnt see any remorse or desparation. It was sad to me. I did not cry but told him I was thankful for him and I would never give up but that he needed to help himself. He said something aabout getting bailed out and going to rehab - yea right - I told him to get him a bed somewhere and find it on his own. A friend of mine from Alanon went with me. Her son is a carbon copy of mine and even our husbands know each other! I was glad to have her support. The visit just let me down. I know I should not have expected more - he looked like he had just gotten out of bed - he did say he was doing ok and was glad when the officer locked him up - he told the mental health that he was addicted to opiates. We will see.