AngelaMia aka Merris
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difficult child running rampant. No consequences, no treatment, no nothing. Just independant therapy in the morning then he hangs out with his friends in the afternoon.
I layed down the law yesterday. I will NOT drive him back to the hospital at night, it's late, I get up early and I don't want to. I do NOT have money to give him. Things with husband gone are very tight (to say the least) and I just don't have it. You want money, get a job! He cannot come in my house when I am not home. I am getting a deadbolt put on the door. He is more than welcome when I am home, but I want NO ONE here when I am not home.
My family is so mad at him for screwing up that they don't even want to talk to him. I don't blame them. We've all had enough. I keep forgiving but I am the mother. How many more times will I forgive before I just cut him out of my life forever?
I am angry. I am angry at him for being so unmotivated. He called me today whining because it's taking so long for him to go through the process. You're complaining to me?!?!? YOU TRIED TO KILL ME! You want me to feel bad for you? You've been out for 2 months and you've used your get out of jail free card already. You ran from the program and you got high. And now you're back with your "friends". Stupid idiot. Stupid, stupid.
The suspended sentence isn't for 9 years, it's 10. I can't see a light at the end of this tunnel. I see him going back to his old ways and I know there is nothing I can do. It's his choice, his life. It pains me to know how hard I tried to give him a normal life. I tried SO hard to make things right for him, but he won't put in the same effort. Words don't make a difference to him. He told me, he actually said to me today, "I need to relax".
HELLO? You just spent a year in jail with nothing to do - 2 months in a hospital relaxing and now you need sometime to relax? What about me? I've been fighting for you for 8 g-damn years, my marriage is gone, I live in a slum and I am alone. Who needs to relax?
Oh forget it. I just needed to vent.
Thanks
I layed down the law yesterday. I will NOT drive him back to the hospital at night, it's late, I get up early and I don't want to. I do NOT have money to give him. Things with husband gone are very tight (to say the least) and I just don't have it. You want money, get a job! He cannot come in my house when I am not home. I am getting a deadbolt put on the door. He is more than welcome when I am home, but I want NO ONE here when I am not home.
My family is so mad at him for screwing up that they don't even want to talk to him. I don't blame them. We've all had enough. I keep forgiving but I am the mother. How many more times will I forgive before I just cut him out of my life forever?
I am angry. I am angry at him for being so unmotivated. He called me today whining because it's taking so long for him to go through the process. You're complaining to me?!?!? YOU TRIED TO KILL ME! You want me to feel bad for you? You've been out for 2 months and you've used your get out of jail free card already. You ran from the program and you got high. And now you're back with your "friends". Stupid idiot. Stupid, stupid.
The suspended sentence isn't for 9 years, it's 10. I can't see a light at the end of this tunnel. I see him going back to his old ways and I know there is nothing I can do. It's his choice, his life. It pains me to know how hard I tried to give him a normal life. I tried SO hard to make things right for him, but he won't put in the same effort. Words don't make a difference to him. He told me, he actually said to me today, "I need to relax".
HELLO? You just spent a year in jail with nothing to do - 2 months in a hospital relaxing and now you need sometime to relax? What about me? I've been fighting for you for 8 g-damn years, my marriage is gone, I live in a slum and I am alone. Who needs to relax?
Oh forget it. I just needed to vent.
Thanks