Ever have friends or family ask you "can we have one outing without you predicting the apocolypse?" when you look for the closest exit, security kiosk, or police booth. Or maybe people tell you "It's gonna be okay, don't worry over nothing."? I hear it quite frequently...They also tell me I worry too much, and that not everything that happens is going to be the Worst Case Scenerio. I will admit, I'm thinking of the Worst Case Scenerio a lot of the time...An example would be someone going out to a party, the first thing I figure is they're going to get severely intoxicated and be sexually assaulted, killed in a car accident/kill someone else, everything that goes along with that. Or maybe I look at a situation and figure that everything is going to go to dirt in 5 seconds...Figure that something very bad is going to happen. Then there are the times when I come across as close-minded and pessemistic...But I am not a pessemist, I'm a realist... In our job, we see the worst possible outcome of any situation. We're the ones working that 13-year-old OD patient, we're the ones fighting the fire started by the jealous ex husband, we're the ones crawling into wrecked cars and cutting out the 17-year-old girl who said "I'll be fine, I can make it home." Our brothers in blue deal with the punks who have been rejected so they go out and rape the girl who rejected them, the street trash who sell Anphetamine Drugs and Ecstacy to pre-schoolers, and they deal with the parents who are so stoned that they LAUGH at their starving 3-year-old when he cries out in pain from the hunger.... Yes, there are more good people in the world than bad people and not everyone is like that. But, let's face it, you can't ignore it...It's all around us...That is reality. We don't live in a perfect world...We don't all follow the 10 Commandments and a lot of us may not be going to Heaven...Maybe some of us broke the Commandments for a good reason (Is it wrong to steal a loaf of bread to feed a starving family?) (Is it wrong to kill a man to save your life or someone else's if there is no other way?) The fact is, the more of the stuff you see, the more you get desensitized to it...The more death you see, the easier it is to deal with when you run a fatal. The more abuse you see, it makes it easier to treat the patients and take statements and hear all the details....But it also disillusions you. It's not the proper mindset to have...We should always look to the bright side, even on the darkest day...but it happens. If that's what you see day-in-day-out, it conditions you. An example of that would be nothing you see on the news surprises you anymore...Your reaction to these incidents gets to be lesser and lesser. One day you're shouting at the baby-raper on the TV, the next you're shrugging it off like "Ce'st La Vie." One day you're puking at the scene of that car wreck and crying inconsolably in the cab of the Ambo after that Domestic Abuse call, the next day you're touching the bodies bare-handed and joking about rednecks as you leave a scummy trailer with someone's badly beaten family member in the back. So, what I'm really trying to say in all of this, is that it's okay to be Uber Optimistic, so as long as your feet are firmly rooted on the ground and you realize what's going on out there "on the street." I'm also telling you enjoy life, enjoy what's out there...Don't let anything hold you back, hug your children/spouses, shout out to the world from the top of a mountain, just enjoy your life and don't take things for grantid.