We have been talking about Autism Spectrum Disorders (ASD) for a couple weeks now, reading books and explaining in simple words that everyone is different in many ways. Partner was even able to tell that one child at gym has probably Autism Spectrum Disorders (ASD) (I actually know he does but did not say that to him since diagnosis are confidential). I told Partner that just because he acts a bit different, it does not mean he does not want friends. Today, they had gym and the teacher teamed Partner and this child. Partner did such a good job helping this boy and making him part of the game. The teacher congratulated him for being such a good friend and such a good helper. I asked Partner if this boy talked to him. Partner said that he does not talk. Then I asked him if he could tell wether the boy had fun or not. Partner was all excited that they both LOTS of fun together. I am so proud of my big little guy. So after stopping at the pediatrician's to talk about genetic testing and schedule the referral, the boys and I made an activity: V found all the different blue crayons we have and Partner all the gold/yellow ones. They each drew little stick guys in the different shades of their respective colors. We then talked about being the same color but still being different from one another (tall blue guy, light blue guy..). I explained that V's guys were on autism spectrum, just like V. And that Partner's guys were neuro-typical just like him. I kept a straight face but gosh! I was emotional to tell my beautiful 5 year old little boy that he has Autism Spectrum Disorders (ASD). They both took it very naturally. We also read a excellent book: "ethan's story: my life with autism". We talked about the good parts of Autism Spectrum Disorders (ASD) (V's ability to see details, being able to watch and observe animals and nature for hours) and the harder parts (making friends, understanding what people mean). V was amazing. He kept on saying "I'm just like Erhan" "I have autism". And V was so excited to learn that Ethan is a real person! And now, I'm so proud of them but yet I keep swallowing my tears. I know they were both ready to know the truth. V is slowly collapsing at school and at home. I know the storm is coming as things get harder at school and V cannot keep up. He knows he cannot keep up. He had is first mini-meltdown at school yesterday. The teacher called me to let me know. It's the first time she sees the other side of V. I'm sure more will come. It's been about 1 week that he has those mini meltdown at home... The pediatrician was shoked that V has no help at school. She told me to not wait beyond January. Then, I have to really fight the school. She said that elementary testing will be very different from the preschool testing we 6 months ago. I have all those pots on the fire and I feel like my head is going to explode. I need a vacation on the white sanded beach!