Hey there, everyone! Haven't been on here for a while, just wanted to touch base. I really like this quote by Albert Einstein, below. With minor exception, I'm feeling pretty balanced on moving ahead these days. A blip here and there, but the "blips" are shorter (due to gratitude) and the rebounds are faster and stronger (due to years of practice). Our son continues to make bad choices (really bad choices) and struggle. This may come to a turning point as he has his next scheduled Drug Court on Feb 9th (1 week from today). He's a mess with drugs, crime and burning bridges in the few genuine relationships he has. So much goodness inside him (at times), buried by so much mental health, drug addiction, criminal activity, and debt (financial and relationship). I spent years asking why this is.........noting that he is now nearly 26 years old. But a few years ago (maybe 3-4?), I just quit wondering and decided to ride the bike. As you all know, loving our VERY troubled children (as kids or adults) can be a risky, perilous ride. But for me, there came a day when I just had to choose life -- whether our son did or not. Years later, I still stand by that choice. Even moreso, actually. Life is always worth living and enjoying to the best of our ability (which is probably moreso than we realize)! I also conclude that my living with intentional gratitude and happiness whenever I can (and accepting the "blips" as just part of the "ride") helps ME, but it also helps EVERYONE I LOVE. We all learn what gratitude is together, this way. So, we haven't seen or heard our son's voice since last September. We have swapped brief private messages on Facebook. And when I say, "brief", I do mean BRIEF. Like 5-6 words sometimes. Usually, "Love you and miss you." Perfect? No. But it's enough. Why is it enough? Because: 1) We know he's alive, 2) We know it would be a mistake to try to engage him during these phases (we've tried......we learned). So, we wait for "possibilities to pivot". Drug Court next week is such a possibility. Either 1) He will show up (skeptical, but ya never know) or 2) He will not show up (and an arrest warrant is reissued). Either of these options is a "possibility to pivot". He may or may not. But it's a possibility. And that's a power that, ultimately, lies in his hands. Meanwhile, my husband and I consciously, intentionally seek our joy separate from our son. Each individual's happiness matters, in their own identity! So, we see friends often, we take little trips (this weekend to the coast), take big trips (fingers crossed for Thailand later this year!), enjoy football (despite the fact that we lost BIG TIME this season in our friendly football pool with other families.......where we must don The Apron of Shame and The Spatula of Suckatude and make dinner for 20-ish people during the Super Bowl party!), we see lots of movies (Revenant, Bridge of Spies, and The Finest Hours, recently), etc. You get the drift. There are ALWAYS ways to grow our happiness as individuals and as a couple (and with friends)........even when our son struggles. Meanwhile, we keep a prayer for him, subsist on 5-6 word messages, and wait for that "possibility of pivot". Hey, I should capitalize that............it's a THING! Possibility of Pivot! I guess that Possibility of Pivot is something we all have -- even when we struggle. Hopefully we can all find ways to lift ourselves and each other when those possibilities arise! Thanks for listening.