and I feel like I'm not getting the whole story from her. She's not allowed in her regular classroom the rest of the week, but says all she did was throw some pencils (could be construed as throwing them at someone, which she didn't intend this time) and kicking a water fountain. She's had shorter removals for throwing a desk at a classmate, and once again I have no paperwork stating what happened. It might be in the mail, sometimes they do that instead of sending it home with her. I have an email in to her teacher to find out. She's obviously not feeling well and that does contribute, and once again this was over her disappointment in her own test scores. In other news I met with another of her SpEd workers today and we did the paperwork to apply for the autism wavier waiting list (said list being approximately 10 years long right now if she qualifies). Same worker is also willing to help me do the paperwork to apply for disability for Kiddo, which was suggested by a higher up SpEd person in their office. My worry there is that I'll need an atty for that one since it sounds like everyone has to fight for it, and can't afford it. I need to get one for the divorce stuff anyway, since her father wants me to put this child on a plane by herself and send her down for the summer. Yeah... because he has any clue on handling her and any way to get her the medications and docs she needs while keeping his other kids safe. I'm gonna go over to my corner and have a little stress-induced breakdown for a bit (i.e. I'm going to watch homicide and forensics shows to relax, how messed up is that?).