It is really upsetting to me that my supervisor is applying for these two secretarial positions. I am almost sure she will get one of them. She has already passed the 50 wpm typing test (which I can't seem to pass for the LIFE of me,) Her computer skills are way more advanced than mine, and most importantly, she is bilingual. Not to mention she is drop dead gorgeous, dresses really really nice, and looks like a million bucks. I already know I will not get either position. I am reading and re reading the computer skills info my boyfriend gave me, and it's like I am reading Chinese. I am playing around on my computer at work, trying to put in use what I have read, and I can't do it. Not to mention, no matter how hard I try, I can't seem to type more than 40 words per minute. Let's face, it, I will have a new supervisor next year, and I will be getting all the calls instead of splitting them up half and half. That's approximately 100 phone calls a day. I can't even handle my 50 calls now much less 100. My supervisor just told me earlier today that she is going to text me right away if she gets either job. The job interview, after all the testing has been done, is scheduled for July 22. That means somewhere around that time, I will find out I have a new supervisor, and I will still have more than half the summer to obsess about it. I will have one anxiety ridden summer. I do not want to find out in July if she got the job. I don't want to stress and obsess. I would rather wait to find out when I come back in September. In the meantime, I am going to stress until July 22, waiting anxiously for the outcome. I can't even enjoy my summer, darn it, and that makes me mad. Why, oh why, do I have to have such bad anxiety? I hate it!