Hound dog
Nana's are Beautiful
It has been a very very long year, made longer by one crisis after another....... You have no idea how glad I am that it is about to come to an end. Finals are tomorrow (monday) and tuesday. Graduation is friday. If I weren't so profoundly exhausted I'd jump up and down and do a dance.
Will I graduate? At this point I honestly don't know. Not for lack of effort. But the mother in law crisis this quarter, which happens to be the fastest pace quarter of all of them, really did not help me. I missed one of my clinical make up days because mother in law passed away thursday night.
I called my instructor right after the nursing home called us. I truely intended to go to clinical friday......but that morning after calling people.....well it all just hit me in a rush and I was in no emotional/mental condition to be around patients. So I called off. I've not heard a peep from the instructor. I don't know if she's mad.....or what. But I'm sorry I think the death of a family member overrides a clinical day, even if it's a make up one.
medication Surg final is tomorrow. I think I'm ok for that one. It's "my" subject. I usually do well in it. OB on the other hand, is the one with the ditsy instructor who of course once again can't teach out of the book we paid for. So been studying my butt off and we'll see. Barely passing that class. Hard to study for exams you don't have all the information on. And since that one is tues, I have another day of study........and I'll need it.
I will be thrilled to graduate. But if I don't.........well dammit I didn't quit. I DID NOT QUIT!
My family here gets it, especially the girls. Of course they've gone through all the crises with me too........ My Mom won't leave me alone. I think she's trying to be encouraging.....but saying I WILL graduate because she says I will......we'll sort of rubs me the wrong way right now, ya know? Unlike her I didn't have the ability to lock myself in my room for 12 solid months with minimal/no contact with family. Unlike her I actually care about my children/family and so can't simply can't poke my head in the sand and blatantly ignore a crisis while someone else "handles" it. Because around here, there simply is no one else to handle them. Period. She just does not get that, at all.
If it is at all possible.....I will pass both finals. If I'm forced to make up that stupid clinical day that there is no real reason to make up (other than the instructor is being a major *itch) I will make it up. I still will not quit.
When mother in law was still able to speak, she told me she was so very proud of me for finishing school and graduating. I really hope I don't disappoint her. And I'm trying really hard not to........I know she'll be walking with me onto that stage to get pinned if I make it.
But come tuesday around noon........I will be thrilled, one way or another. Because it will be over!!!
I know nursing school is hard and stressful. But having a major crises hit everytime I turned around.....well 12 months of that....has me on the brink of a breakdown.
But it will be over soon. Right now I'm hyper-focused on that. lol
And after..........I'm not doing anything that I don't consider fun for at least 2 full weeks. Well, nix that.....I have mother in law's funeral.......but besides that.
For my family here that has given me tons of support every step of the way........I surely hope I will be announcing my graduation soon. Without you guys I'd have never made it this far....seriously, I hope you know that.
(((hugs)))
Will I graduate? At this point I honestly don't know. Not for lack of effort. But the mother in law crisis this quarter, which happens to be the fastest pace quarter of all of them, really did not help me. I missed one of my clinical make up days because mother in law passed away thursday night.
I called my instructor right after the nursing home called us. I truely intended to go to clinical friday......but that morning after calling people.....well it all just hit me in a rush and I was in no emotional/mental condition to be around patients. So I called off. I've not heard a peep from the instructor. I don't know if she's mad.....or what. But I'm sorry I think the death of a family member overrides a clinical day, even if it's a make up one. medication Surg final is tomorrow. I think I'm ok for that one. It's "my" subject. I usually do well in it. OB on the other hand, is the one with the ditsy instructor who of course once again can't teach out of the book we paid for. So been studying my butt off and we'll see. Barely passing that class. Hard to study for exams you don't have all the information on. And since that one is tues, I have another day of study........and I'll need it.
I will be thrilled to graduate. But if I don't.........well dammit I didn't quit. I DID NOT QUIT!
My family here gets it, especially the girls. Of course they've gone through all the crises with me too........ My Mom won't leave me alone. I think she's trying to be encouraging.....but saying I WILL graduate because she says I will......we'll sort of rubs me the wrong way right now, ya know? Unlike her I didn't have the ability to lock myself in my room for 12 solid months with minimal/no contact with family. Unlike her I actually care about my children/family and so can't simply can't poke my head in the sand and blatantly ignore a crisis while someone else "handles" it. Because around here, there simply is no one else to handle them. Period. She just does not get that, at all.
If it is at all possible.....I will pass both finals. If I'm forced to make up that stupid clinical day that there is no real reason to make up (other than the instructor is being a major *itch) I will make it up. I still will not quit.
When mother in law was still able to speak, she told me she was so very proud of me for finishing school and graduating. I really hope I don't disappoint her. And I'm trying really hard not to........I know she'll be walking with me onto that stage to get pinned if I make it.
But come tuesday around noon........I will be thrilled, one way or another. Because it will be over!!!
I know nursing school is hard and stressful. But having a major crises hit everytime I turned around.....well 12 months of that....has me on the brink of a breakdown.
But it will be over soon. Right now I'm hyper-focused on that. lol
And after..........I'm not doing anything that I don't consider fun for at least 2 full weeks. Well, nix that.....I have mother in law's funeral.......but besides that.
For my family here that has given me tons of support every step of the way........I surely hope I will be announcing my graduation soon. Without you guys I'd have never made it this far....seriously, I hope you know that.
(((hugs)))
