Littleboylost
Long road but the path ahead holds hope.
well folks mixed emotions are running here this morning. Trying to lose that old familiar knot in my stomach as we head to the airport.
Son decided he would prefer to stay at Cop mom and GFs house instead of being minded by family friend. So many things ran through my mind. How this was the worst idea humanly possible and this is going to end in disaster or worse Jail were among a few of my thoughts.
Initially I hit the panic pit, then I paused.... ahhh yes I am learning from my meditation techniques. I meditated and paused. And I came to my conclusions.
He is 18 and for all intents and purposes he is an adult. If he
s up while we are away what better justification can I have than to express to the courts that Cop mom volunteered (ya I know she really interfered, the dumb ass) to supervise our dear AS while we were away. No finer person to leave son in the care of than one of our very own officers of the law! If he gets into trouble that’s on her and AS not us. Let girlfriend and Cop mom fill their boots! I have text messages from here showing her interference with our arrangements and her voluntarily requesting to supervise son while we are away. Huh funny the panic and pandemonium left....there is still an underlying knot in my stomach ....the knot of impending doom.
I went through all the usual throws of FOG as I packed my bag. Again I paused and allowed reason to prevail. This Is Normal, taking a rest and a well deserved vacation is normal. I am normal and I do normal things that normal people do.
I am grateful we decided to take this vacation now. The holiday season is on full swing and it was starting to get me down. We have no extended family to spend the holidays with. When we return we have festive arrangements for Christmas arranged. We have set it up to succeed as a joyous time wether or not son chooses to participate.
My gosh that felt good to get out of my head. I am so glad I found you all!!
And now we are at the airport. Yay let the vacation begin Margaritas for Everyone!
Son decided he would prefer to stay at Cop mom and GFs house instead of being minded by family friend. So many things ran through my mind. How this was the worst idea humanly possible and this is going to end in disaster or worse Jail were among a few of my thoughts.
Initially I hit the panic pit, then I paused.... ahhh yes I am learning from my meditation techniques. I meditated and paused. And I came to my conclusions.
He is 18 and for all intents and purposes he is an adult. If he
s up while we are away what better justification can I have than to express to the courts that Cop mom volunteered (ya I know she really interfered, the dumb ass) to supervise our dear AS while we were away. No finer person to leave son in the care of than one of our very own officers of the law! If he gets into trouble that’s on her and AS not us. Let girlfriend and Cop mom fill their boots! I have text messages from here showing her interference with our arrangements and her voluntarily requesting to supervise son while we are away. Huh funny the panic and pandemonium left....there is still an underlying knot in my stomach ....the knot of impending doom. I went through all the usual throws of FOG as I packed my bag. Again I paused and allowed reason to prevail. This Is Normal, taking a rest and a well deserved vacation is normal. I am normal and I do normal things that normal people do.
I am grateful we decided to take this vacation now. The holiday season is on full swing and it was starting to get me down. We have no extended family to spend the holidays with. When we return we have festive arrangements for Christmas arranged. We have set it up to succeed as a joyous time wether or not son chooses to participate.
My gosh that felt good to get out of my head. I am so glad I found you all!!
And now we are at the airport. Yay let the vacation begin Margaritas for Everyone!
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