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<blockquote data-quote="recoveringenabler" data-source="post: 642770" data-attributes="member: 13542"><p>Thanks everyone.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>I feel that way too. Post toxicity. Every day I get more used to this new way of being.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>Yeah, I feel that too. It is tiring.That bird in the new thermal feeling..........she leaves the old thermal to gain altitude and gets caught in the massive winds free floating until she reaches the higher thermal and gets used to it. I imagine myself with hair wildly blowing every which way, eyes bugged out, clothes torn and ragged, a weird 'joker' kind of smile on my face............and then it makes me laugh. </p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>Hmmm, my hallway experience. Well, for me, I wander around in the hallway trying to be very open and not attached to any outcomes.....not always easy........and I wait. Sometimes for a lot longer than my mind would imagine is a "fair" amount of time. Then, my experience has been a door swings opened and I am now in a whole new movie........that has happened to me through many transitions. Since I am always growing and learning I've had MANY, MANY transitions! You'd think that hallway would be familiar, but........it isn't. It's usually a very new experience each time. Something ends.......I go through the letting go process........grieve.......wait.........then.....an opening. I think the waiting is the gestation period, where new ideas are hatching underneath awareness........and they require a darkness, an unknowing, an amount of time, where the seeds are sprouting but you don't really know it. I can be impatient and feel as if I want to go pull on those little seeds, pull them right out of the ground........but of course, I don't. I wait. Wait until something new forms and then...........the idea seems to show up fully formed and ready to go. Then there is a new clarity, I've heard it called diamond consciousness because it is sharp and there isn't any doubt. Often there are opportunities which spontaneously show up....things you couldn't have anticipated.......... </p><p></p><p>quote="HeadlightsMom, post: 642670, member: 18284"]Does the door open for us or do we open the door? Or both? Or, the one I really liked up there was the "revolving door" image. Now that's a visual I think we can all relate to!</p></blockquote><p></p><p>I don't think I open the door. At that point, I think it's more about allowing...........and waiting...........and then the door opens........</p><p></p><p>After the door opens then I think the new life requires a commitment. A commitment to be true to oneself and go where one is guided. There is a wonderful quote which is said to be by Goethe, here it is:</p><p></p><p>"Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back. Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one's favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way. Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. Begin it now.”</p><p></p><p>I believe in those words and have much experience in the truth of them. </p><p></p><p>So, I continue my wait, here, in the land of empty, the Great void.</p><p>[/QUOTE]</p>
[QUOTE="recoveringenabler, post: 642770, member: 13542"] Thanks everyone. I feel that way too. Post toxicity. Every day I get more used to this new way of being. Yeah, I feel that too. It is tiring.That bird in the new thermal feeling..........she leaves the old thermal to gain altitude and gets caught in the massive winds free floating until she reaches the higher thermal and gets used to it. I imagine myself with hair wildly blowing every which way, eyes bugged out, clothes torn and ragged, a weird 'joker' kind of smile on my face............and then it makes me laugh. Hmmm, my hallway experience. Well, for me, I wander around in the hallway trying to be very open and not attached to any outcomes.....not always easy........and I wait. Sometimes for a lot longer than my mind would imagine is a "fair" amount of time. Then, my experience has been a door swings opened and I am now in a whole new movie........that has happened to me through many transitions. Since I am always growing and learning I've had MANY, MANY transitions! You'd think that hallway would be familiar, but........it isn't. It's usually a very new experience each time. Something ends.......I go through the letting go process........grieve.......wait.........then.....an opening. I think the waiting is the gestation period, where new ideas are hatching underneath awareness........and they require a darkness, an unknowing, an amount of time, where the seeds are sprouting but you don't really know it. I can be impatient and feel as if I want to go pull on those little seeds, pull them right out of the ground........but of course, I don't. I wait. Wait until something new forms and then...........the idea seems to show up fully formed and ready to go. Then there is a new clarity, I've heard it called diamond consciousness because it is sharp and there isn't any doubt. Often there are opportunities which spontaneously show up....things you couldn't have anticipated.......... quote="HeadlightsMom, post: 642670, member: 18284"]Does the door open for us or do we open the door? Or both? Or, the one I really liked up there was the "revolving door" image. Now that's a visual I think we can all relate to! [/quote] I don't think I open the door. At that point, I think it's more about allowing...........and waiting...........and then the door opens........ After the door opens then I think the new life requires a commitment. A commitment to be true to oneself and go where one is guided. There is a wonderful quote which is said to be by Goethe, here it is: "Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back. Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one's favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way. Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. Begin it now.” I believe in those words and have much experience in the truth of them. So, I continue my wait, here, in the land of empty, the Great void. [/QUOTE]
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