Just wanted to give an update to those who were so kind to me when difficult child ran off. He is still with his bio dad. I can't believe he's made it there this long. His dad is really not happy with this; as he only has a studio apartment Those who read my previous post know that he has never parented before. We were married for 22 yrs. I was still a teen when we married. We stayed married until difficult child was 4 but difficult child never lived with his bio dad. I relocated when I was pregnant. My pregnancy with difficult child was very difficult, it required a hospital stay until I was 5 months along. I totally had to stay on bed rest. I had "total placenta-previa". It meant I could not so much as hang my feet over the bed. Maybe this is why I love this child so much. He was very wanted. Anyway, I still don't know what is going to happen. He seems to be doing O.K. His dad tells me their taking it one -day-at-a- time. There are few rules he has to follow. Try and be neat, shower, be home for dinner, be home by 10:00. But no one checks-up on him, where he goes,what he's doing, because his dad is at work all day. It is hard to believe he is not doing something drug related?? When I talk to him he does not sound high but there is know way for me to know. School will be starting soon, he needs a dental appointment. and eye appointment. and like I said his dad had never done any of those things. So every day I worry and wait to see what will happen??? On the lighter side... I spent a few days in Lake George NY with my two older children. I was not going to ; I think depression, but I forced myself. My daughter was on vacation with her family and my DS was there for a few days with his girlfriend before returning to University. It sad you know, because difficult child takes up so much of my energy there is little left for anyone else. The other children, although grown now, still need attention from mom and there is not enough to go around. difficult child's manage to absorb all. I was happy I did. I know it pleased my other children, and it pleased me to please them! Thank you all for listening it really helps to check in here.