Last ♡ Hope
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Okay so the psychiatrist started difficult child (who is still in the psychiatric hospital) on lithium. He had his first dose yesterday morning and shortly after the first dose the staff said they noticed a change, he became very agreeable and calm. I was surprised to hear this because everything I've read says it should take about 5 days to manifest change in affect, but I was also hopeful that this was a good sign.
I wasn't able to visit yesterday as 10 yr old easy child had a softball game. difficult child called and was just devastated that I wasn't able to come up, he cried on and on and on and couldn't even form words. I was a little rattled by this, but the nurse that took the phone explained he was just really tired and was heading off to bed. I accepted that and figured he was still a little out of whack from having all his other medications Difficult Child'd within the last four days.
I get the update this morning that difficult child has been doing well, attending all groups and just generally being successful, calm and agreeable. I am about jumping out of my skin with joy, you couldn't slap the grin off my face. I'm thinking we've found the magic bullet - the answer to our prayers - could it really be so simple?!?
Until I visit him at 5 pm.
He was shaking like a leaf, dazed, clutching his shirt and drooling intermittently. He seemed withdrawn, even though he was happy to see us, the happiness seemed somehow distant, it's hard to explain. Like it was there, but he couldn't fully access it. I asked him how he felt and he said "I don't know". He did get down and play with little easy child and was kind of loud and giddy - but even that had the same kind of stoned, out-of-it quality to it. Then he'd just stop, like he'd forget what was going on, and just kind of be lost again. But he was very pleasant when we spoke to him, very sweet and docile. And very cuddly in a limp sort of way.
I was scared to tears. I've never seen him this impaired before. I went out to the nurses station where I was told he had started acting very strange around 4pm and that his Dr. had ordered the lithium be held tonite and a trough be drawn at 8:30pm. I asked what dose he's been on and they said 300 mg b.i.d. - so 600 mg total, daily. I asked why such a high dose (the material I've been reading says for kids 6-12 the starting dose is 15 mg per kg total per day in divided doses, which according to *my* math means his daily total should be 420 mg - NOT 600 mg). Evidently they've been giving him the extended release and 300mg b.i.d. is the lowest dose available in that formulation. So I'm thinking, okay, maybe this is just too much and he needs the immediate-release in a smaller dose maybe four times a day -- ???
Anyway, we draw the trough at 8:30 and I stay with him until he falls asleep (because frankly, I'm too f***** scared to leave him!!!). He did seem to be shaking less and drooling less before falling asleep thank God or I'd probably still be there, praying and crying over him.
Well the psychiatric hospital called me just a bit ago to tell me his level is only 0.3, which is BELOW therapeutic level of 0.6 -- so it's not an overdose issue.
So can someone with experience in lithium please help me understand WTF is happening to my baby??? Is he allergic to it?? Is it reacting with the Zyprexa?? Is this some withdrawl from one of his other medications?? I have to wait until tomorrow to hear back from psychiatrist but I guess she is as perplexed as everyone else is by this. Am I just freaking out for nothing? It really, really looked scary to me...
All I could think about was how much hate I felt for him sometimes when he was in his murderous rages, and then seeing him like that tonite... I just wanted to die. ::bawl::
I wasn't able to visit yesterday as 10 yr old easy child had a softball game. difficult child called and was just devastated that I wasn't able to come up, he cried on and on and on and couldn't even form words. I was a little rattled by this, but the nurse that took the phone explained he was just really tired and was heading off to bed. I accepted that and figured he was still a little out of whack from having all his other medications Difficult Child'd within the last four days.
I get the update this morning that difficult child has been doing well, attending all groups and just generally being successful, calm and agreeable. I am about jumping out of my skin with joy, you couldn't slap the grin off my face. I'm thinking we've found the magic bullet - the answer to our prayers - could it really be so simple?!?
Until I visit him at 5 pm.
He was shaking like a leaf, dazed, clutching his shirt and drooling intermittently. He seemed withdrawn, even though he was happy to see us, the happiness seemed somehow distant, it's hard to explain. Like it was there, but he couldn't fully access it. I asked him how he felt and he said "I don't know". He did get down and play with little easy child and was kind of loud and giddy - but even that had the same kind of stoned, out-of-it quality to it. Then he'd just stop, like he'd forget what was going on, and just kind of be lost again. But he was very pleasant when we spoke to him, very sweet and docile. And very cuddly in a limp sort of way.
I was scared to tears. I've never seen him this impaired before. I went out to the nurses station where I was told he had started acting very strange around 4pm and that his Dr. had ordered the lithium be held tonite and a trough be drawn at 8:30pm. I asked what dose he's been on and they said 300 mg b.i.d. - so 600 mg total, daily. I asked why such a high dose (the material I've been reading says for kids 6-12 the starting dose is 15 mg per kg total per day in divided doses, which according to *my* math means his daily total should be 420 mg - NOT 600 mg). Evidently they've been giving him the extended release and 300mg b.i.d. is the lowest dose available in that formulation. So I'm thinking, okay, maybe this is just too much and he needs the immediate-release in a smaller dose maybe four times a day -- ???
Anyway, we draw the trough at 8:30 and I stay with him until he falls asleep (because frankly, I'm too f***** scared to leave him!!!). He did seem to be shaking less and drooling less before falling asleep thank God or I'd probably still be there, praying and crying over him.
Well the psychiatric hospital called me just a bit ago to tell me his level is only 0.3, which is BELOW therapeutic level of 0.6 -- so it's not an overdose issue.
So can someone with experience in lithium please help me understand WTF is happening to my baby??? Is he allergic to it?? Is it reacting with the Zyprexa?? Is this some withdrawl from one of his other medications?? I have to wait until tomorrow to hear back from psychiatrist but I guess she is as perplexed as everyone else is by this. Am I just freaking out for nothing? It really, really looked scary to me...
All I could think about was how much hate I felt for him sometimes when he was in his murderous rages, and then seeing him like that tonite... I just wanted to die. ::bawl::