good morning............ or afternoon difficult child didnt' go down last night till 2 so up again late i woke up and thought ok what will we do today? same old, same old, difficult child's hoarding in her room has gotten so bad she is now sleeping in easy child's old room. So, we have to go in there today with garbage bags and i'm sure she'll melt down the entire time. anyway point is i feel like i live in a cave in the middle of nowhere sometimes! only time our bell rings is for ups. i have neighbors yet their older, so i say a hi they do same etc. yet i still have no friends here, difficult child well same no kids emailing or facebooking. i keep telling myself be patient only 4 more months and than you can put her back in school and try to get a job. financially it'll help and also mentally for me. do you guys have neighbors, friends that pass by or call? one of the reasons i wanted to move from here was the fact difficult child and i have no friends. than she reconnected with two kids temporarily and we said ok we'll stay. so now i'm focusing on yard, making house look better etc. yet at end of day it's the same i wake up each day the phone never rings, except bill collector's and it's me and difficult child all day long. now without the influx of easy child it's really really well the same each day. i try my best to fill it with the library, rent a movie. yet i've never lived this way before. where i lived last i hada friends, my phone rang, doorbell rang. life happened. I mean i'm actually looking forward to going to my father in laws for easter and we know him and i dont' get along. lol. i guess i could see how i drive husband nuts. first i say let's move we begin to look in another neighborhood, than difficult child makes connections temporarily i say ok let's stay and please order plants. i'm happy with me on the inside. i am. i've done the work and keep doing it. yet this living situation really is getting me down. i require stimulation to some extent. all i have is you guys. so my minds' floating back to ok easy child's gone now, difficult child hastn' made any new friends. what would moving accomplish? how do i know i'd make friends in a new neighborhood?? we have the ex thing nipped. by simply blocking her that has alleviated so much arguing, stress harrassment it's amazing. gotta address this with therapist. yet i'm just like wow this bites each day. i want to be happy with being home in this situation yet i try so hard each day. i look forward to what library movie i'll watch tha'Tourette's Syndrome it. seems like there should be more??? i know so many posts by me lately. i guess too because i am locked up here.