Long morning here. I just got home and I'm opting to type instead of crawling in bed and crying. Talked to difficult child's advisor. He has a 60% in a class where he needs 70% to pass. If he misses even one more time, he fails. This, of course, is different from what he tells me. He is likely headed for 2 As (online classes where I tutor him) and 2 Fs (regular ones). Went to see the attorney. He is setting up a revocable trust which can benefit difficult child after my death, but only if he meets certain criteria. It was sad because part of the documents will say I believe he is incapacitated (or something like that). But the truth is sad sometimes. Then to Al-anon...bless them. And to the insurance agent per attorney's instructions to buy an umbrella policy. Which I cannot do, because of difficult child's pending DUI charge which shows up in their database. Both the attorney and my agent have advised me to get him off my policy as soon as he turns 19 (age of majority here) and never let him drive a car with my name on the title. The agent was allowed to increase my limits on auto coverage. I'm afraid difficult child will have a wreck with someone else's car and I'll be sued. So, I feel somewhat less at risk. Just now, I realized something. I'm sad because of what he is doing to himself. Where am I in all this? Don't I matter? Part of me thinks I should be angry but then I say, it is a disease, and maybe I shouldn't be angry. But some of me is that I am doing what is right and trying to provide him with a college education, yet I had to go spend a small fortune today to protect both me and difficult child from difficult child. It's all so complicated. Going to tell difficult child tomorrow that he cannot go to school this summer unless he gets a job and takes care of his pending legal issues. That means he cannot stay here and I won't give him cash. There is some 'friend' who recently inherited about $22K. The boy is 19, never had a driver's license and is somewhat mentally challenged. difficult child talked him into renting a trailer near the school. I figure he will move in there - until the money is gone and then - who knows. The attorney told me not to worry about an eviction process. Just tell him. I feel better...thanks for reading.