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I wanted to post here because watercooler is for everything that's not related to difficult child, and this I don't know if it's related to PTSD, or YEARS of PTSD, or recent severe stress....(deep exhale). Since we're all oldhat at LOADS and LOADS of stress as parents who have been there done that and have lots of experience dealing with teens, post teens, lots of kaka....I thought - well I'm going to post this here for some words of wisdome. Not that I don't think other parents don't have great advice, but I really wanted to hear from others who have older kids, gone through the trenches and get your opinions.
First off - I can deal with a LOT. And when I tell you I can deal with a LOT - I mean it. If I gave you a day in the life of? Most people literally just sit gobsmacked and then I take a finger and shut their jaw and I'm smiling, laughing and state some happy smiling thing like- I'm lucky that's all I have today. I mean that. I've been through so very much in my life - and come out the better for it. That said - Lately? I can't get my mess together if I put it in a bucket and labled it. I've been calling my brain "Fritz" - It's like I literally have adult ADHD - I'm scattered. I can't concentrate. I'm not sleeping bad - but it's a whole lot less. I'd rather be working myself literally to the bone than anything else - Im happier when I'm working like that. I have lost interest in EVERYTHING. But I'm not depressed. WEird huh?
I can't carry on a single conversation - but I can carry on like three or four. I'm on Welbutrin.....I see the doctor regular and my sugar is excellent - like 83. I'm telling you me and Fritz are not firing on the same neurons. So I'm thinking - IS this ADHD? I even had a man the other day tell me - WOW you have problems focusing. I couldn't disagree. My mind races like ----about fifty things..even while I'm typing it can think about 20 things...lol....Give it good....rofl. Okay - but seriously ------(see other post) So whaddya think about ole Fritz and me? Time for some RItalin or time for me and Fritz to hop a boxcar down a long track to nowhweresville - and sing like a parrothead?
I asked DF today if he thought you could actually crack up from trying to NOT let things get to you.....hhahaha - then? I was distracted by a shiny thing and never heard a word he said. OMG I need a Fritz transplant.
First off - I can deal with a LOT. And when I tell you I can deal with a LOT - I mean it. If I gave you a day in the life of? Most people literally just sit gobsmacked and then I take a finger and shut their jaw and I'm smiling, laughing and state some happy smiling thing like- I'm lucky that's all I have today. I mean that. I've been through so very much in my life - and come out the better for it. That said - Lately? I can't get my mess together if I put it in a bucket and labled it. I've been calling my brain "Fritz" - It's like I literally have adult ADHD - I'm scattered. I can't concentrate. I'm not sleeping bad - but it's a whole lot less. I'd rather be working myself literally to the bone than anything else - Im happier when I'm working like that. I have lost interest in EVERYTHING. But I'm not depressed. WEird huh?
I can't carry on a single conversation - but I can carry on like three or four. I'm on Welbutrin.....I see the doctor regular and my sugar is excellent - like 83. I'm telling you me and Fritz are not firing on the same neurons. So I'm thinking - IS this ADHD? I even had a man the other day tell me - WOW you have problems focusing. I couldn't disagree. My mind races like ----about fifty things..even while I'm typing it can think about 20 things...lol....Give it good....rofl. Okay - but seriously ------(see other post) So whaddya think about ole Fritz and me? Time for some RItalin or time for me and Fritz to hop a boxcar down a long track to nowhweresville - and sing like a parrothead?
I asked DF today if he thought you could actually crack up from trying to NOT let things get to you.....hhahaha - then? I was distracted by a shiny thing and never heard a word he said. OMG I need a Fritz transplant.