difficult child 1 is being difficult today. Arguing over the dumbest little things and not wanting to do ANYTHING but watch tv. I finally lost it...a yelling match ensued....I even resorted to spanking him....NONE of which makes me feel very good right now. WHY do I resort "the familiar" when I get REALLY get stressed? I hate repeating any of what my mother did so this REALLY bothers me. I feel bad for difficult child 1 at the same time. I know his only having 8 hours of sleep is the culprit since he is used to getting closer to 11. He woke up way too early today. Right now, I made him go back upstairs INTO his bed to take a "nap". I am hoping he will actually sleep. In the meantime, I hate when things go this haywire. I hate the monster I become when I'm pushed WAY beyond my limit. I hate what that does to him. I hate what it does to me. AND I hate that difficult child 2 is around for any of it. Thanks for listening.