hi, we made it home, i'm happy to say. I'Tourette's Syndrome funny i was soo concerned with how to transition difficult child into home environment i forgot about me. lol let's just say it was overwhelming. i was up all night with anxiety. husband has def. made up for his needy overwhelming behavior while i was in oregon. stayed up with me all night scratching my head, my back, trying to calm me down. lol tonight i'll probably sleep. house was clean, yet let's just say i guess due to party easy child had two pictures of husband and i were ruined beer on them, other junk broken. than difficult child yes did a full shut down on dinner with-me. which might of been caused by easy child's complete meltdown during dinner at me totally out of the blue raged at dinner table. easy child now has two empty bottles of malibu and something else in her room that smells like smoke also. unreal..... i get she'll be 18 yet not way things are supposed to be. think she wasn't too happy to see me last night and knew how her life would be go back to me over seeing it now. yet felt so bad for difficult child that she had to walk into easy child melting down like that which lead to her refusing to eat. right away easy child jumped on her about it. wrong move. so husband sat down and talked to easy child last night and told her you cannot do that etc. let's just say i have my work cut out for me. yet we all knew i would. i'm hoping for a much better day today, maybe a nap would be great. i gave up sleeping at 7 when i only got two hours. so husband got up and made me coffee and we sat catching up on stuff. than ofcourse easy child missed bus so needed a ride lol so he brought her to school. i don't think i was prepared last night to talk into all of it right away. yet maybe it's better the storm hit now i can slowly begin getting things in order, kids and dog included. just wanted to let you guys know i'm back oh and by the way i'm looking online today and joining a local gym and yoga class. husband was shocked i said yup i'm putting me first now. if i'm ok they'll be better. that's the plan at least.