First off, understand that this is mostly just me mulling things over and trying to figure things out. I'm having trouble at work. The main reason I have managed to survive so long in a Corrections career has been my desire to help people. The problem is that appears to be changing. I don't know if its life just starting to wear me down, the job finally wearing me down, the situation with our son, or just that I'm getting older and less tolerant of blatant stupidity. I tend to dread going to work anymore. There is little joy in it, not that there was ever a huge amount. I work in a prison after all! But I used to feel like I was making a difference and now feeling like I'm spinning my wheels almost counts as a good day. I know our son plays a part in this. Seriously, how can I possibly help these people when I cant even help my own son? It doesn't help that the class that I started facilitating last month is a nightmare. The curriculum is poorly written at best and most of the offenders in the class don't want to be there and have no problem vocalizing this. I've gone out of my way not to be the jerk, I could have written dozens of conduct violations, but all I get is more pissing and moaning about having to be in class. I haven't started seeing our son's face on one of the offenders yet but it feels like its only a matter of time. One thing they taught in the academy that has stuck with me and helped greatly over the years is to be a duck. All the crap that happens is water and water rolls off of a ducks back. Problem is, here lately it feels less like being in the rain and more like being pulled under the water. I just need a change of pace. I told Lil the other day that I was considering trying to transfer to Central Office, still Corrections but the main office so no offenders. On that note, any suggestions how to get through the work day? I know there aren't many on the board who work in corrections but any input is greatly appreciated. Maybe if we start playing more in the SCA that will help as well. Get back in armor and vent some frustrations on my friends with a stick!