I just need to write it to accept it. Sort of saying something out loud, but I have no one to say it to. My son is a herion addict. He is 25 years old and lives at home. I have enabled to the fullest extent. I have always thought if I help one more time he will get better. NOT! Only worse. Then I carry the guilt that I have made it worse, and that I can not stop now or he will die. I accept today that if I continue he will die. I have no control. He has had three wrecks since November of last year. I accept the fact that he is gonna kill someone or his self if things do not change. It I stop helping, things will have to change for the better or for the worse. I am scared of him, when I do not give him money he becomes violent, breaks things in house and has pushed me, prevented me from calling for help by taking phone away from me, etc. My question is if I leave my house and go stay with daughter I know he can not make it on his own and will have to ask for help or I know if I call police he will wind up in jail. Is leaving my house to keep him from going to jail enabling? Also, he takes methadone and still does herion. If he goes to jail, is it medically safe to detox from both without any medical supervision? Sorry, I am rambling and probably not making sense, but I can not even think straight this morning. Thanks for any suggestions for words of encouragement you might have.