I called the police in her town to check on her and the rest of the family somehow I thought I was doing the right thing
she was so mad she told me not to call her anymore
Welcome, Broken.
Our children can be sources of such joy for us Broken, or they can leave us feeling destroyed. I am so sorry this is happening to you, so sorry you don't have the loving attention you need from your daughter and your grandchildren right now.
Things can change, Broken. None of us knows what tomorrow may bring. In the meantime, the most valuable thing you could do is to become the best, healthiest
you you know how to be.
I have asked the police to do a welfare check on my daughter and grandchildren more than once too, Broken. You did nothing wrong in making that call.
Are you seeing someone to help you cope with the sadness you feel, Broken? That would be a good place to start, I think. If you call your county's Social Services department, they will be able to help you know where and how to begin and pay for those services.
I am sorry your daughter feels as she does Broken. There are times when, once we know they are alright and there is nothing we can do to help them, we need to respect our children's wishes. If this is your daughter's choice, for whatever reason, that is alright, Broken. Her decision to have no contact for a time does not change who you are. Her decision does not affect your value as a human being.
There are so many hurting people in the world, Broken.
You can help.
There is a place for you, a place you will be cherished and respected and loved. Your daughter will have to work through her issues with you on her own. One day, she may call. One day, she probably will. But until she does Broken, it will help you to decide you are going to take charge of your own life, of your own time.
There are so many people who need you, Broken.
People who are dying alone in Hospice or in a hospital somewhere, children or elementary schools who need a grandmother type to cherish and to love and to teach love, by her simple presence; dogs and cats at an animal shelter near you who need petting, who need human contact and love and care before they are adopted or euthanized.
There is a whole life waiting for you out there, Broken.
Please don't let your daughter's nastiness toward you determine whether you will choose to treat yourself badly, too.
Life is precious, and seems to pass in a snap of the fingers, Broken.
However you feel right this minute, determine to celebrate your life.
We will be right here, Broken. We have been where you are, right now. Each of us has had to reclaim her life, has had to choose joy and passion and commitment.
You can do this, Broken.
Cedar