Ok i am new to this so please bear with me. I am a mother of 6. I have a 23 yrold son (oldest) then 21,19,17,& 6 yr old daughter and also a an 8 yr old son.. My oldest is where the problem comes in.. Currently my 8& 6 yr old live alone. And i have tried various amount of times to take my oldest son in. Eaxh time he disrespects me and want s to enter my house high all times of the night disturbing me and the little ones.. I am mentally and physically exhausted.. I am at my wits end with him. So i had to tell him he is welcome to come over eat, take a shower, and possibly spend the night if he is sober and in at a decent hour. But he no longer live with me.. But my mom says im treating him wrong. I am currently not speaking with her because of a big falling out we had over him . i love my son dearly but i also have to think about my 6 and 8 yr old.. Why do i feel so guilty?