The past 3 months of difficult child-dom have hoovered in a hoover-dam sized way. I'm so so so so so sick of the school situation. And finally the meeting is tomorrow. But this week, I just can't seem to get my head in the game. I've always been good (at least I've been told) at being objective despite the carp that's thrown my way. One Broom's nickel and diming us, Two Broom's continuing to blame me (those are just annoyances). But DEX's girlfriend bugging difficult child 1 and his wife, and wanting wee difficult child to join her "family" just really....exceeds my ability to see things clearly. Toss into that the situation with the medicaid, and the fact that if I apply for these services (targeted case management and medicaid), the child support people WILL go after DEX. I was told by DSS that if I get sole custody and modify visitation so he has none (he hasn't used his visitation in 6+ years) based on it being a "detriment to wee difficult child's emotional stability", that would show cause to avoid the child support issues, which means they'd leave DEX alone, and he, in turn, would leave difficult child alone, and I could tell girlfriend to shove it without worrying that she's gonna get a father of the year hair up her hiney and push DEX into the middle of all we've been doing to get wee difficult child straightened out. I can't keep what I need to do for the medicaid stuff, what difficult child NEEDS, and the fact that I don't want them to have anything to do with this seperate this time. And its bugging me. I've always been able to put my personal issues aside for the kids...why not now? Anyway, I gotta get my head in the game for tomorrow. My focus has to be what difficult child needs at school. Just pray I can do that.