made me really angry. Felt like just walking out and not returning...NONE of us. Last week I brought difficult child in for his session. Pick him up at school, drive 45 minutes. And, ofcourse we fought all the way. Doesn't want to go. He doesn't mind once he is there, but it is getting him there. I don't even know what started it. I just know I cried all the way there, we fought. He says nasty things to me, I react with the same. In the waiting room we were still going at it. Homework! therapist and wife (who I see) came out of the back and told us to Chill...breathe. I know another mother came in with kids. difficult child and I weren't yelling, just going back and forth. That is when he threw his phone at me. So today I go. I was telling her about what is going on at school. They removed something from IEP, the one teacher who allowed him to come in after school to complete a test said she can no longer do that. Program director wanted therapist's number. I just would like to know what needs to be done to get that back on his IEP about extra test time. All of a suddent I have 3 people sending me emails, wanting release papers signed to talk to therapist. I told them no. As he charges well over $100 for a phone call. Spec. Ed. teacher (who difficult child does not have for any type of class) she was observing a class when she found out he was going to come back to finish and she would not allow that to happen. So now I don't know what they want. Anyway - I was told that difficult child and I scared the other lady in the waiting room and we are NOT to act that way. I reminded her that nobody WAS there when we got there and when the lady came in she took all her kids and put them in all these different rooms to do homework. I was again told it is unacceptable. I told her THAT is WHY we are there. If things were GOOD we would NOT be there. And difficult child agreed that a portion of his session could be shared. Of course it was about me and how husband and I don't get along, but more that I am the one who gets angry. So she wants to know WHAT I can do about it. Well I don't know. husband doesn't talk at all to me. He leaves when I get up for work and doesn't return until I am gone. When I am home it is complete silence, so lets see....WHAT CAN be done? He refuses to acknowledge that I am alive! i talk. I tell him about my day, who I talked to, things that happened, only because I cannot stand the silence. he doesn't respond, but I don't care anymore. Still I am handling everything and I get overwhelmed and ask him for help. He ignores me so much I am sure he doesn't even hear me, anything I ask him to help with does not get done. So - YEP I get angry. difficult child doesn't know how overwhelmed I feel, how tired I am, how much I want help, how much I want someone to talk to. Someone to care. Tomorrow husband and I go together to our appointment. It is in the evening. It is just bad, bad timing. They need to pack, difficult child needs to do some school work and go to bed. he won't go to bed if nobody is home. Can't pack his clothes if he IS sleeping. he already told me he is not doing any homework. husband is one who doesn't pack anything until just before he leaves. (I pack in advance and write lists to remind me of things). So tonight he was doing laundry..which was interupted by difficult child's ER visit. I am at work. I work 17 hours then have to stay up until evening for our appointment. which is about 20 miles away, and it is suppose to be snowing. I do not want to go. therapist is wonderful with difficult child, but my initial phone call was to have testing done. I want a definate diagnosis. That hasn't happened. School is on my back regarding IEP, and I am just not in the right state of mind to deal with all this. Then to tell me we have to be "cheery" when we come in. Well guess what. If I was all cheery I wouldn't be there!