Californiablonde
Well-Known Member
I posted earlier about my dad disowning me towards the end of last year. It all started when I posted about horoscopes on Facebook, and he told me I wasn't a real Christian and would burn in hell. He then made all kinds of wild accusations about me and told me he was going to unfriend me. Then I didn't hear from him for a couple of months. I figured after all that was said and done, he disowned me.
Then we received a Christmas card from him in December, along with a check for $150 for me and the kids, and an apology for letting things get "out of hand." In the card, he told me he was coming to California during spring break, and he wanted to meet with me without the kids so we could talk. This past weekend, my dad texted me saying his spring break has now arrived and he wants to get together with me privately so we can talk.
I don't know the reason in particular that he wants to meet with me without seeing his grandkids. It could be to apologize in person, or it could be to reiterate everything that he posted about on Facebook, about me not being a real Christian, blah blah blah. I am seriously doubting he wants to meet just so he can apologize. We are still friends on facebook ( he threatened to delete me but never did) and I just recently posted about needing prayers for my anxiety.
One of my friends commented on my post and said that I needed to find a different combination of medications, as mine now clearly aren't working. My dad replied to her post, claiming all psychiatrists are frauds, they make more and more money the more diagnoses you have, and make extra money based on how many medications you are taking. My dear fiancé then said something to him about how ridiculous his accusations were about psychiatrists being frauds.
Of course you all know how much I hate conflict, even when I am not involved. As soon as my fiancé posted his comment, I asked him to delete it. He has already had a previous conflict with my dad when I was threatened to be disowned. I don't want my dad to have more ammunition against my fiancé. My fiancé obliged me and deleted his comment. I don't know if my dad saw the comment or not. He hasn't posted since.
Anyway, I have a feeling this Friday my dad will be giving me a huge lecture on the evils of medications, how he doesn't really believe I have anything psychologically wrong with me (and believe me, I am prepared to show him the scars on my wrists from my attempted suicide if he tries) and how my relationship with my fiancé is bogus because we met online ( as he alleged a few months ago.)
I don't want to go to this meeting. If all it's going to do is turn into an argument, I want no part of it. I don't want to spend 2 hours defending myself, my bipolar and anxiety, my relationship, and my words and actions. I hate conflict, and right now I am not doing the greatest in the anxiety department. I feel obligated to meet with him, however, due to the Christmas card and the money. So I am going to make my dad happy, and make myself really uncomfortable in the process, and meet with him at Starbucks on Friday. Wish me luck, and pray it turns out better than expected.
Then we received a Christmas card from him in December, along with a check for $150 for me and the kids, and an apology for letting things get "out of hand." In the card, he told me he was coming to California during spring break, and he wanted to meet with me without the kids so we could talk. This past weekend, my dad texted me saying his spring break has now arrived and he wants to get together with me privately so we can talk.
I don't know the reason in particular that he wants to meet with me without seeing his grandkids. It could be to apologize in person, or it could be to reiterate everything that he posted about on Facebook, about me not being a real Christian, blah blah blah. I am seriously doubting he wants to meet just so he can apologize. We are still friends on facebook ( he threatened to delete me but never did) and I just recently posted about needing prayers for my anxiety.
One of my friends commented on my post and said that I needed to find a different combination of medications, as mine now clearly aren't working. My dad replied to her post, claiming all psychiatrists are frauds, they make more and more money the more diagnoses you have, and make extra money based on how many medications you are taking. My dear fiancé then said something to him about how ridiculous his accusations were about psychiatrists being frauds.
Of course you all know how much I hate conflict, even when I am not involved. As soon as my fiancé posted his comment, I asked him to delete it. He has already had a previous conflict with my dad when I was threatened to be disowned. I don't want my dad to have more ammunition against my fiancé. My fiancé obliged me and deleted his comment. I don't know if my dad saw the comment or not. He hasn't posted since.
Anyway, I have a feeling this Friday my dad will be giving me a huge lecture on the evils of medications, how he doesn't really believe I have anything psychologically wrong with me (and believe me, I am prepared to show him the scars on my wrists from my attempted suicide if he tries) and how my relationship with my fiancé is bogus because we met online ( as he alleged a few months ago.)
I don't want to go to this meeting. If all it's going to do is turn into an argument, I want no part of it. I don't want to spend 2 hours defending myself, my bipolar and anxiety, my relationship, and my words and actions. I hate conflict, and right now I am not doing the greatest in the anxiety department. I feel obligated to meet with him, however, due to the Christmas card and the money. So I am going to make my dad happy, and make myself really uncomfortable in the process, and meet with him at Starbucks on Friday. Wish me luck, and pray it turns out better than expected.