She says that she has retired, and is willing to see me one or two times if I think that will work for me, and that she has spoken to a trusted colleague who would be good for me. She doesn't mess with insurance anymore, she just consults from time to time to keep her license active, so she is not going to charge me. I told her that I really didn't know what to think, everything is going so fast. We may or may not have this life-changing thing happen shortly, or we may be stuck here for a while, and maybe nothing will happen. I just need someone objective to talk to who can help me to decide if I need more long term treatment. I finally got out of the house last night after having been down with that stomach stuff from the antibiotics for so long. We really haven't gotten out of the house in ages, and I had almost forgotten how to have a good time or think independently, if that makes any sense. Between the bad weather and the sadness and the sickness I was really in a funk. It felt good to get out. But it also made me realize how much I have been limiting myself. Oh well, I am seeing Dr. K on Thursday, and hopefully we can get a mental health plan going from there. I'm definitely going to talk to her about medications. I'll keep you all up to date!