RN0441
100% better than I was but not at 100% yet
Many know my story but for those that don't my son has been sober since September 2017. He was sober for a month prior to being enrolled in a long term faith based program on October 10th. We are now in year 7 of his addiction.
He went to the program kicking and screaming and my husband left him in the parking lot after he ran out during the intake and refused to stay, backpack in hand, crying. My husband drove away with a heavy heart but we knew this was our last resort. His dad had picked him up from a rehab in Florida that he had gone into after being Baker Acted by his girlfriend for threatening suicide and spending time in a psychiatric ward. He had been in Florida since March of 2016 starting in sober living and doing very well, going to school and working at a job he liked but then always fell off the wagon and went back into the rabbit hole. Wash. Rinse. Repeat. I always felt his heart wasn't in it so I continued to work on my boundaries. I never knew how, if or when this would end.
I'm happy to say that he is now doing very well. He finally is seeing the world through sober eyes and is saying and doing so many things that I honestly never dreamed I'd witness. This program has been absolutely a miracle for him and I cannot express how grateful I am that we were able to get him enrolled. This is exactly what he needed as nothing else worked and we tried everything. His soul was broken. I don't know how else to express it.
He just told us that he is going on a mission to an Indian Reservation in Montana in June with a small group from the program. I am happy he is standing up to the plate rather than sitting back in the shadows. He said he is very scared because he has to tell his story there even though he has told it to those in his program many times. He is very shy socially and has social anxiety so this is a big deal for him. I am hoping that he will be enriched by this experience. He has indicated that he wants to help others so I am thinking this experience will reinforce that for him.
He will graduate from the program in November of this year and if he keeps up as he has been I think he will have a very good chance of beating this demon that has been chasing him for so long. We will continue to support him as long as he is working on himself and moving in a positive direction. I am afraid to get too hopeful so am trying to remain neutral but I do feel hopeful.
He went to the program kicking and screaming and my husband left him in the parking lot after he ran out during the intake and refused to stay, backpack in hand, crying. My husband drove away with a heavy heart but we knew this was our last resort. His dad had picked him up from a rehab in Florida that he had gone into after being Baker Acted by his girlfriend for threatening suicide and spending time in a psychiatric ward. He had been in Florida since March of 2016 starting in sober living and doing very well, going to school and working at a job he liked but then always fell off the wagon and went back into the rabbit hole. Wash. Rinse. Repeat. I always felt his heart wasn't in it so I continued to work on my boundaries. I never knew how, if or when this would end.
I'm happy to say that he is now doing very well. He finally is seeing the world through sober eyes and is saying and doing so many things that I honestly never dreamed I'd witness. This program has been absolutely a miracle for him and I cannot express how grateful I am that we were able to get him enrolled. This is exactly what he needed as nothing else worked and we tried everything. His soul was broken. I don't know how else to express it.
He just told us that he is going on a mission to an Indian Reservation in Montana in June with a small group from the program. I am happy he is standing up to the plate rather than sitting back in the shadows. He said he is very scared because he has to tell his story there even though he has told it to those in his program many times. He is very shy socially and has social anxiety so this is a big deal for him. I am hoping that he will be enriched by this experience. He has indicated that he wants to help others so I am thinking this experience will reinforce that for him.
He will graduate from the program in November of this year and if he keeps up as he has been I think he will have a very good chance of beating this demon that has been chasing him for so long. We will continue to support him as long as he is working on himself and moving in a positive direction. I am afraid to get too hopeful so am trying to remain neutral but I do feel hopeful.