We were told yesterday we had to be out of house by January 15th. Good thing we didn't make big plans for Thanksgiving or Christmas of New Years. The landlord sold his other house and is moving back in. I sat and cried yesterday and felt sorry for my family. husband is so stressed, he is struggling with work. Our house has been on the market for 2 years up in Idaho. We don't want to touch the 2nd mortgage in case we can't get what we owe. We only left it because of K, but it was the right decision. The medical bills are killing us. K smashed a snow globe yesterday and cut herself up. We had to remove any thing that she could hurt herself with in her room. She has been trying to hurt me more. N is so anxious, she is afraid to be away from me. I found her in the bathroom just sobbing, she was shaking she was scared to go the bathroom. She wouldn't even go with her grandparents on thursday so that we could go to psychiatrist. She doesn't want to leave K or me. Dexter is her source of comfort thank goodness. husband's Arthritis is really bad in his back. On and on it feels like. In-laws gave us the "You just have to be positive", I snapped at them, "You know what, we have been positive! We are positive! Things just svck, they have svcked for years and never feel like we move forward despite us trying and begging for help for K..." "Nothing else matters except those kids yet it feels like we can ever do enough!" We just can't help her find stability. I hope the medications start working soon. I know we have a bit for the Lamictal to work... They had nothing to say after that. I just feel lost... I know we will get through this, I just am so frustrated it is at this time of year. I feel so bad for the girls. We will be moving during Christmas. i just hope we can find a place to live, please send out a prayer, positive Ju-Ju or whatever you can that we can find something soon... and that I can stay sane through all of this. I needed a break prior to this. I am so tired.