Hi, I haven't posted anything in awhile. I have been reading but haven't had the energy or ability to post. Mood has been all wrong, very negative so just took a break. My daughter has been in fostercare since July 2010. She had a rough start with a terrible foster parent, but now has wonderful foster parents. SHe is doing really well at their house. There is a father in the household and that always seems to help her. The problem is I have completed all of the items they have given to me to do, above and beyond really. We have court again in April and I don't want her to come home, sometimes I do. Her behavior on the weekends is not so hot. Still throwing fits and talking baby talk and all the whining. Still cursing and screaming at me when she doesn't get her way. I asked her if she wanted to come home, and she said not if you don't have internet. I wanted so badly for her to come home on the weekends, and now that she has been for two months, they are the worst times of my life. It just reminds me of before, only a little scaled back. She can't get a long with her therapist and just recently had to have the police called at the DCFS for her behavior. I think they are going to send her home, but she is getting worse. I don't think I am ever going to be able to raise her. I feel guilty though, for not raising her, but I really can't take it emotionally. She sends my into a state of panick and it's over the silliest things. Has anyone ever refused to take their child back? What happens? There is just no peace with this situation, no matter what I do. I was just beginning to realize that life was nice and peaceful and I didn't have to go thru the abuse. Now it's going to and is starting all over. Any advice would be helpful. Thank you.