good morning: bringing difficult child to meet new art/biofeedback therapist today if i can wake her. she was up again last night. it isnt' a dad transitional thing, that did make it worse because dad lays with-her. it's a "her" thing. She's been doing it for soo many mos. now i've forgotten. Our day's end here around 3a.m. i'm totally worn down to be honest. Happy on my signature isnt' really the truth, depressed is more like it. so, here it goes. i'm going to list what difficult child is displaying, what i'm looking to help and maybe you guys can share with-me your experience with-medications pertaining to these things. i unfortunately got dropped by our old pyschdoc, looking for a new one. yet in the interim i have a pyschdoc's office and a nurse practioner who is now medicating her. crazy i know. she doesn't have the qualifications and i'm looking fora new one. yet in the interim i gotta find something for difficult child because school starts in two weeks and she just wont' make it in the door at this point. she is: obsessing - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) is kicking in bad - not rituals obsessive thoughts, reoccuring especially at night. anxiety - severe. manic - i'm seeing it; hard to decifer some nites if it's that i'm seeing or the anxiety. i think their both present. depression ; is kicking in. self loathing somewhat; hopeless etc. why am i like this? wetting bed ; always a constant. i've tried: antipsychotics - a no go tried several either don't work or weight gain and side effects too severe. benzo's - would love to go there again. tried prozac while back she went manic on it had a very hard time; yet that was two years ago. antidepressants, mao's ; didnt' spell right sorry lol. she also went manic on these. the only thing i havent' tried is a mood stabilizer. which right now wont' combat what i'm looking to assist or help with. it's very hard with-difficult child as you can see. alot of medications do not work. we tried natural they dont' work. it's like giving her candy. tried roots, teas, natural supplements, all a no go so far. any thoughts would be greatly appreciated. this nurse doens't know her medications at all. so she sits there and is zero help and tells me to go home and research. insane, and yes need a strong pyschdoc yet can't find any here in n.y. at this point. thanks!!!