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TiredTennessean
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Hi everyone,
Ive been lurking a couple of weeks and cannot tell you how happy I was to find this forum. Ive read alot of your posts and cried to alot of them and related to most.
I am 37 and a mother to 3 boys, 15(difficult child), 12(easy child/Typical pre-T) and a 3 yr old.
Ive been having problems with my 15 yr old for awhile now. It escalated to the point to where we are letting him go live with his grandparents. I just cant do this anymore, and luckily there is another option for him where he will be loved and taken care of. He wants to live with them badly and acts totally different with them, as he has no respect for me.
He has been using marijuana at school, and recently found out he has been saving change and buying lowertabs and xanax and taking those. He got in trouble at school for having 2 packs cigs, chew. tobacco and drug paranephalia, so they turned it over to juvenile youth services where he was put on court probation for 90 days, had to watch a tobacco film and pay a fine. Then a month later he got caught smoking at school and we had to go back to juvenile office where he took a drug test and failed it for lowertab. He openly said he doesnt know how he passed it because he had smoked marijuana 2 weeks before the test. However, only the lowertab showed up. He was put on 6 mo probation, has to do 50 hours community service and have intensive in home therapy through Youth Villages 3x week. They wanted to put him inpatient due to desire and admittance to wanting to keep using drugs, but insurance wouldnt pay. We also have to see a therapist. He objects to authority figures at home and school and is failing. Also has run-away twice in the last year. He was a member in the Young Marines which he loved, for the last 2 1/2 years. He was kicked out at the end of the summer after being left in charge of some younger members for hazing and intimidation. He and another older member beat up some younger boys to show who was stronger. My son put bars of soap in a sock and hit the boys with it. One of the other boys caught it on video and that was how it was all found out. Im expecting a lawsuit at any moment, tho it hasnt happened yet.
We went to the therapist yesterday for the intake. She diagnosed him borderline conduct-disorder and with severe depression due to his suicidal thoughts and having a friend commit suicide within the last 6 months. This wasnt a close pal, but a friend at church. I recently found out thru his brother that he now doesnt believe in God.
We had a blow up this morning. He treats me as an equal, and has no respect whatsoever. He has started cussing, and has even done it in front of our 3 year old. He used to abuse his 12 year old brother who has always been much, much weaker, but after the Young Marine incident this summer, I told him be'd better not ever lay another hand on his brother. To my knowledge, he hasnt.
Seems like there is so much more to all this, but it would take all day.
I hope I am not messing up by letting him go live with his grandparents. I need peace in my house. Im not sure how I even feel about my son at this point. There are days when I feel so much dislike and even hatred. The school he will be transferring to will be better, its much smaller and a country school.. but Im wondering how this will all turn out. WOndering if he will eventually go to his old behaviors even with the threat of having to come back home. I told him that if he does mess up at his grandparents house that he will not come back home. He will have to find his father and go live with him. His bio-father is an alcoholic and can hardly keep himself supported.
Any comments or thoughts are so very welcome. Im broken and not sure what to do or if Im making the right decisions. I feel so many emotions at this point.
Thanks,
Nicole
Ive been lurking a couple of weeks and cannot tell you how happy I was to find this forum. Ive read alot of your posts and cried to alot of them and related to most.
I am 37 and a mother to 3 boys, 15(difficult child), 12(easy child/Typical pre-T) and a 3 yr old.
Ive been having problems with my 15 yr old for awhile now. It escalated to the point to where we are letting him go live with his grandparents. I just cant do this anymore, and luckily there is another option for him where he will be loved and taken care of. He wants to live with them badly and acts totally different with them, as he has no respect for me.
He has been using marijuana at school, and recently found out he has been saving change and buying lowertabs and xanax and taking those. He got in trouble at school for having 2 packs cigs, chew. tobacco and drug paranephalia, so they turned it over to juvenile youth services where he was put on court probation for 90 days, had to watch a tobacco film and pay a fine. Then a month later he got caught smoking at school and we had to go back to juvenile office where he took a drug test and failed it for lowertab. He openly said he doesnt know how he passed it because he had smoked marijuana 2 weeks before the test. However, only the lowertab showed up. He was put on 6 mo probation, has to do 50 hours community service and have intensive in home therapy through Youth Villages 3x week. They wanted to put him inpatient due to desire and admittance to wanting to keep using drugs, but insurance wouldnt pay. We also have to see a therapist. He objects to authority figures at home and school and is failing. Also has run-away twice in the last year. He was a member in the Young Marines which he loved, for the last 2 1/2 years. He was kicked out at the end of the summer after being left in charge of some younger members for hazing and intimidation. He and another older member beat up some younger boys to show who was stronger. My son put bars of soap in a sock and hit the boys with it. One of the other boys caught it on video and that was how it was all found out. Im expecting a lawsuit at any moment, tho it hasnt happened yet.
We went to the therapist yesterday for the intake. She diagnosed him borderline conduct-disorder and with severe depression due to his suicidal thoughts and having a friend commit suicide within the last 6 months. This wasnt a close pal, but a friend at church. I recently found out thru his brother that he now doesnt believe in God.
We had a blow up this morning. He treats me as an equal, and has no respect whatsoever. He has started cussing, and has even done it in front of our 3 year old. He used to abuse his 12 year old brother who has always been much, much weaker, but after the Young Marine incident this summer, I told him be'd better not ever lay another hand on his brother. To my knowledge, he hasnt.
Seems like there is so much more to all this, but it would take all day.
I hope I am not messing up by letting him go live with his grandparents. I need peace in my house. Im not sure how I even feel about my son at this point. There are days when I feel so much dislike and even hatred. The school he will be transferring to will be better, its much smaller and a country school.. but Im wondering how this will all turn out. WOndering if he will eventually go to his old behaviors even with the threat of having to come back home. I told him that if he does mess up at his grandparents house that he will not come back home. He will have to find his father and go live with him. His bio-father is an alcoholic and can hardly keep himself supported.
Any comments or thoughts are so very welcome. Im broken and not sure what to do or if Im making the right decisions. I feel so many emotions at this point.
Thanks,
Nicole