Hello everyone, I am new today and I can't even begin to tell you how relieved I am to have found this place! My difficult child 2 (D)was diagnosed with Autism at 3 years old and has serious behavioral problems that I have never been able to get control of, and now my difficult child 1 (A) is in an inpatient facility for the first time undergoing observation and treatment. I feel like a total idiot! "A" has been displaying mood problems, conduct issues, suicidal mentions, and everything else for years and it was soooooo completely overshadowed by difficult child 2's Autism that I was totally ignorant to the fact that, just maybe, he had some serious issues going on! Don't get me wrong, I'm not having a pity party for myself, but I just have to admit my total lack of attention to the situation in order to be able to accept it and move forward. He's been in the hospital since Saturday. He ran away from home...I called the police, they couldn't find him, they called the Sherrif to bring the K9 dog, whom I had to provide a piece of clothing for the dog to get his scent and track (this was like living a prime-time drama). The whole thing was a total nightmare but luckily they found him, several miles from home acting very irrational and unsafe. I am completely new to this situation and never imagined myself admitting my child into a psychiatric hospital, but I quickly acknowledged the seriousness and knew I had to make a move. And lastly, I have to mention the kids' dad. Selfish, disconnected, biological donor who's nothing but a glorified babysitter....well, actually a babysitter would do a better job than him in taking care of these boys. I guess that gives a good description. So, here I am, in a completely new reality, and not very happy about it. But I am determined to stay strong and do whatever I have to do to give these kids a chance at a good life. I've never had anyone to REALLY talk to about my kids' issues and I'm truly hoping to find some much needed support here.