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<blockquote data-quote="kitty9259" data-source="post: 60419" data-attributes="member: 3908"><p>Thanks for all your well wishes and prayers. I'm having a rough day....I miss my difficult child. I tryed calling him at work yesterday and they put me on hold for 28 min. then hung up, I don't know if he was aware it was me and didn't pick up or if he thought I was a bill collector and did'nt pick up.I have gone over and over our life as a family. Why is it the mom always takes the blame? I put up with more in a week than most parents would put up with in a lifetime. I think about the million times that I tryed so hard to reach him, talking until the wee hours of the morning and knowing with great sadness that all the words and reason in the world were not going to get through to him, that the next day would be no better than the last....I regret yelling and losing my temper. I regret so much, most of all my inability to help this child that I loved from the moment of conception. I wonder how much he was responsible for being misdiagnosed, I know in my heart that he never wanted to fail in school, or lie or steal..I don't think anyone intentionally wants to screw up. He was always so lonely, so eager for friends and a girlfriend.So eager to be liked and never realizing he was most likable when he wasn't trying so hard.I look back and realized when he was in 7nd grade that this kid was lacking something basic...he didn't like anything or have a "passion" for anything...most kids that age start seperating and find a love for art or horses or music or books or something..not my difficult child, it was hard enough for him to just to get through a day. I guess I'm just having a sad day...I haven't seen him in a month and I miss him. I guess he's doing ok, or I would have heard from him. Right??</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="kitty9259, post: 60419, member: 3908"] Thanks for all your well wishes and prayers. I'm having a rough day....I miss my difficult child. I tryed calling him at work yesterday and they put me on hold for 28 min. then hung up, I don't know if he was aware it was me and didn't pick up or if he thought I was a bill collector and did'nt pick up.I have gone over and over our life as a family. Why is it the mom always takes the blame? I put up with more in a week than most parents would put up with in a lifetime. I think about the million times that I tryed so hard to reach him, talking until the wee hours of the morning and knowing with great sadness that all the words and reason in the world were not going to get through to him, that the next day would be no better than the last....I regret yelling and losing my temper. I regret so much, most of all my inability to help this child that I loved from the moment of conception. I wonder how much he was responsible for being misdiagnosed, I know in my heart that he never wanted to fail in school, or lie or steal..I don't think anyone intentionally wants to screw up. He was always so lonely, so eager for friends and a girlfriend.So eager to be liked and never realizing he was most likable when he wasn't trying so hard.I look back and realized when he was in 7nd grade that this kid was lacking something basic...he didn't like anything or have a "passion" for anything...most kids that age start seperating and find a love for art or horses or music or books or something..not my difficult child, it was hard enough for him to just to get through a day. I guess I'm just having a sad day...I haven't seen him in a month and I miss him. I guess he's doing ok, or I would have heard from him. Right?? [/QUOTE]
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