Karenvm
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Hello.
My name is Karen, and I am brand new to this forum. I am really struggling with my 17 year old son, and am just at my witts end.
Background: I am married, have three sons (17, 14, 9). My 17 year old has struggled since about fourth grade, with depression, ADHD. He is extremely bright, could be a straight A student if he tried at all. Was always the smartest kid in his grade, etc. People meet him and love him, he's respectful everywhere except at home. He's also very oppositional. Does not get along at all with his 14 year old brother (never has). about a year and a half ago, we found out he was sneaking out at night (it was the Summer), smoking pot with his "friends". Also found out he was drinking a LOT, mostly when he was alone here in the house. Shortly after, he spent a week in an inpt. adolescent psychiatric unit for depression, anxiety, and "thinking about" suicide. Completed an IOP after discharge, continued psycotherapy, but within two months was smoking again, and came home very drunk a few times. Lots of counseling, psychiatry, tried different medications (he always stopped them because they "weren't working").
All this time, he did pretty well in school, for the most part. Taking all advanced placement classes, and doing okay. Had a great part time job at a grocery store. They loved him.
In the Spring, he "hit bottom" again, lots of anxiety, depression, marijuana use, drinking. He has never gone even three months without smoking pot. He had some crazy melt down one day, held a knife to his throat and threatened to kill himself if my husband didn't give him Klonipin (he had just been prescribed that for anxiety, but was using it WAY more than it was prescribed, and this time, he wanted more). We got out of that situation, and I then called the police, and they came and took him to the ER. Admitted again for one week to adolescent psychiatric.
So far this school year has been miserable. His grades are not great, but okay. He is failing gym because he cut the class for two straight months, and may not even be able to graduate now (he's a senior). He just stopped going to his job, so he lost that. He never called them, or even wrote a letter (as his psychologist recommended). He talks about going away to college, but does nothing to get an application together. Tells people he is going to go to Medical school after college. He is a severe procrastinator, and just can't get from point A to point C.
I found out today that he has skipped school for the past two days (my husband travels a lot, so the house was empty, so he hung out there, smoking pot).
I have had enough. He refuses to live by our rules. There is conflict constantly. I have taken away his phone, computer, XBOX, and have not allowed him to get his drivers license yet because he's not been "clean".
He is a pathological liar- will deny anything, despite the mountains of evidence we produce. He is disrespectful, and just won't abide by simple rules. His behavior has really taken a toll on my 14 year old, who has seen him drunk, screaming at me, screaming at my husband, etc.
I just can't live like this anymore, and don't know what to do. I hate to admit this, but I don't want him living in my home, as he is really ruining the family. I love him, and he can be the nicest kid ever, just not at home. My husband wanted to just get him to go away to college, thinking things will "click" for him, but I can't see that happening at this point. I would be throwing money away.
What are the options at this point? He's not 18 yet (June), so I can't "throw him out". He doesn't need rehab in my opinion, as I don't believe he's an addict (his drug and alcohol use is sporadic, though he has a very addictive personality, and could quickly become one). He needs a long term solution, not a 30 day rehab. I also don't think I can afford the 80K per year "therapeutic boarding schools".
I am so sad. I'm a pediatric nurse practitioner, and feel like I failed my own child. I have a wonderful, successful career, but at home my life has become a mess. I feel guilty letting this happen in my home, thinking about the effect is must be having on my other children, but we don't know what to do. My husband is 100% on the same side as me, we are a team. What can we do?
Thank you in advance for any advice, or even just support you can offer! Thank you for "listening"!!!
Karen
My name is Karen, and I am brand new to this forum. I am really struggling with my 17 year old son, and am just at my witts end.
Background: I am married, have three sons (17, 14, 9). My 17 year old has struggled since about fourth grade, with depression, ADHD. He is extremely bright, could be a straight A student if he tried at all. Was always the smartest kid in his grade, etc. People meet him and love him, he's respectful everywhere except at home. He's also very oppositional. Does not get along at all with his 14 year old brother (never has). about a year and a half ago, we found out he was sneaking out at night (it was the Summer), smoking pot with his "friends". Also found out he was drinking a LOT, mostly when he was alone here in the house. Shortly after, he spent a week in an inpt. adolescent psychiatric unit for depression, anxiety, and "thinking about" suicide. Completed an IOP after discharge, continued psycotherapy, but within two months was smoking again, and came home very drunk a few times. Lots of counseling, psychiatry, tried different medications (he always stopped them because they "weren't working").
All this time, he did pretty well in school, for the most part. Taking all advanced placement classes, and doing okay. Had a great part time job at a grocery store. They loved him.
In the Spring, he "hit bottom" again, lots of anxiety, depression, marijuana use, drinking. He has never gone even three months without smoking pot. He had some crazy melt down one day, held a knife to his throat and threatened to kill himself if my husband didn't give him Klonipin (he had just been prescribed that for anxiety, but was using it WAY more than it was prescribed, and this time, he wanted more). We got out of that situation, and I then called the police, and they came and took him to the ER. Admitted again for one week to adolescent psychiatric.
So far this school year has been miserable. His grades are not great, but okay. He is failing gym because he cut the class for two straight months, and may not even be able to graduate now (he's a senior). He just stopped going to his job, so he lost that. He never called them, or even wrote a letter (as his psychologist recommended). He talks about going away to college, but does nothing to get an application together. Tells people he is going to go to Medical school after college. He is a severe procrastinator, and just can't get from point A to point C.
I found out today that he has skipped school for the past two days (my husband travels a lot, so the house was empty, so he hung out there, smoking pot).
I have had enough. He refuses to live by our rules. There is conflict constantly. I have taken away his phone, computer, XBOX, and have not allowed him to get his drivers license yet because he's not been "clean".
He is a pathological liar- will deny anything, despite the mountains of evidence we produce. He is disrespectful, and just won't abide by simple rules. His behavior has really taken a toll on my 14 year old, who has seen him drunk, screaming at me, screaming at my husband, etc.
I just can't live like this anymore, and don't know what to do. I hate to admit this, but I don't want him living in my home, as he is really ruining the family. I love him, and he can be the nicest kid ever, just not at home. My husband wanted to just get him to go away to college, thinking things will "click" for him, but I can't see that happening at this point. I would be throwing money away.
What are the options at this point? He's not 18 yet (June), so I can't "throw him out". He doesn't need rehab in my opinion, as I don't believe he's an addict (his drug and alcohol use is sporadic, though he has a very addictive personality, and could quickly become one). He needs a long term solution, not a 30 day rehab. I also don't think I can afford the 80K per year "therapeutic boarding schools".
I am so sad. I'm a pediatric nurse practitioner, and feel like I failed my own child. I have a wonderful, successful career, but at home my life has become a mess. I feel guilty letting this happen in my home, thinking about the effect is must be having on my other children, but we don't know what to do. My husband is 100% on the same side as me, we are a team. What can we do?
Thank you in advance for any advice, or even just support you can offer! Thank you for "listening"!!!
Karen