I feel like my heart is going to rip apart one day. It's being pulled in so many different directions. I've got easy child who is finally doing well. He's found the love of his life and he is so happy. And wanting to provide for her is motivating him to live up to his full potential. And I really like K. What a sweetie!! We text each other on the weekends. I really love her. And I love how well she and easy child fit together. The fact that easy child will not be returning home to live in Washington but will be living his life in Minn is a little sad for me. Over all- I'm so happy over this. Ant is (Knock on wood) doing well (for Ant that is - lol). He's still couch surfing, but he's still got his job at the sawmill. He loves his job and wants to keep it. And they do random drug testing so he has to stay clean! He finally got his act together enough to buy a truck. He didn't lose any of his court stuff which turns out to be a good thing. His final court action was to do/pass a drug test. He went to the court appointed place, did the test and passed. The clinic didn't forward the papers to court like they were supposed to so there is a warrent out for Ant again. He will be coming up here to take care of it. And he's waiting until my B-day to come up here so he can see me for my B-day! All in all - this makes me very happy. Then I have Steph who is throwing her life away - again. The last time, she went almost a year without talking to us, but we had family keeping us informed. Now that she burned/blew-up all those bridges, I don't think family is an option. So we might never hear from her, she could OD, she could end up in jail.... there is no knowing and it kills my heart. I've got a fantastic husband.... but one whose job takes him away a lot. From Jan - May he will be in Japan. He might be leaving this fall for another trip. And husband is my rock that helps me keep it together. If he's gone for that long, I am going to have a hard time. What are your secrets to keeping it together when life is giving you extremes??