So, difficult child was diagnosed last month with severe situational depression caused by the terrible troubles from school for behaviors caused by the Risperdal. He was put on an antidepressant and was doing very well: happy, active, back to normal. He is now receiving Homebound instruction but that's not going well at all (he refuses to go because of the teacher the principal is sending and it's in a public place outside his comfort zone). He stays home by himself all day because I can't afford not to work so when school is over at 3:15, he was out the door to play. They just started homebound AFTER school last week. He WAS doing much better but now is back to VERY depressed because he wants to know what he did to cause all this and why he isn't allowed to have a life anymore. He is crying himself to sleep right now and easy child/difficult child is complaining about difficult child's sniffling. I feel so helpless. I want to stay home with difficult child but can't afford to. I want him to have a life after school but the teacher they are sending can only do it after school since she teaches all day. I feel so bad for him but I can't fix this. On top of that, I have easy child/difficult child who is becoming more of a difficult child and showing a few Aspie traits and acting out to get more attention than he is already getting (he gets hours of attention when difficult child is gone every day as well as shared attention every day regardless). He has begun doing things and making noises every time difficult child is getting ANY attention at all. He's complaining about the noises difficult child is making (crying, sniffling) that he can hear over the sound of a fan on HIGH and a shut door. I told him to shut his own door but he gets so scared that he won't. All of this is starting to frustrate me. I told him difficult child has a right to cry in another room with the door closed and that if he doesn't like it, he should shut his own door. I told him he can't have it both ways. Now HE is crying. I feel so torn and helpless and sad and confused and....and....and...... Sorry, I just had to get some of it off my shoulders before I do crack and then I won't be any good to anyone. Thanks for listening.