Today the last of the teeth being pulled were pulled. Great, wonderful........well not really we had numbing issues this time.......but it went ok. Just took forever and that was 3 hrs ago and I still can't feel my tongue or lower lip. lol No more than get home from the dentist and the phone rings. GUESS WHO?? One guess. Oh, c'mon I'm sure you won't even have to try hard. K (from now on known at Katie cuz the K thing drives me nuts) husband answers cuz yeah I'm in NO condition. I can hear her utter excitement and the phone is 2 feet away. Oh we're coming in on the 10:40 am bus!!! TOMORROW morning, OMG! I am soooooo p*ssed! She didn't even bother to attempt to go to the library and contact me so that plans could be made. grrrrrrr So, even in my current drugged state I had husband ask her how much money they had left after bus fair. Well they had to pay 100.00 toward the fair........sooooooooo Drumroll please........... 102.00!!! OMG that is 2 f-ing nites in the motel room!!! No money for food! Ok. I am not mad she's coming. I AM mad over the money. I've been telling katie over and over and over again she had to have plenty to cover the motel and food because the shelter might be full. 102.00 I am supposed to be in bed now..........but I am soooooo furious I can't think straight. Ok. They took her food stamps. It's just as possible they took a percentage of any money her husband earned working for them........and if katie got a welfare check they may have taken that for "room and board". I'll concede that much as obviously this place just taking her foodstamp card and spending it as they saw fit.......they aren't quite on the up and up to begin with. According to 2-4 panic messages from katie the shelter has been close to being shut down by the state several time and their license to operate removed. If that's the case, I still will be p*ssed, but there isn't really anything much to do about it except report them for fraud. Which I intend fully to make certain the kids do. But dear God in heaven if she only has 2 days with of motel money I'm going to have 5 people added to my house........and I'm neither in the physical condition nor the financial position to handle that at the moment. Why am I gonna have them here when I said I wouldn't..................husband has suddenly decided to act like a parent and so yeah. Dammit dammit dammit! The moment she walks through the door I'm handing her the phone to call the shelter and welfare and the motel. I want to scream! I want to hit someone so bad I can't stand it. I want to sit in a corner and cry my eyes out and yet again ask why I just can't seem to STOP having family crises and why do they always have to be when I physically feel like total crud?? I mean c'mon, can't this stuff happen when I feel good??? Yes. I knew katie and family were coming. Yes I do have several plans in place. I'm just experiencing some major PTSD here. And with good reason. Her husband coming along is actually causing the vast majority of it. He is lazy with no desire to work. She says the shelter has readjusted his attitude. I'm sorry but the man is 44 yrs old. If living in a motel for the past 10 plus yrs hasn't readjusted his attitude I'm having a hard time believing the shelter is enough to do it. And even Katie is still having her doubts so it's not just me. Maybe it has changed her attitude and made her take a good long hard look at what SHE wants out of life........but him, yeah.....44 is a bit late to do any major changing. Katie is not stupid. Not the child I raised (with the help of her bioMom of course). So why in hades did she think the time is right to move over here to ohio when she knows she has so little for the motel room/food.......while also knowing her dad and I are not working and are having issues feeding ourselves? Did the jump from springfield to st. Louis teach her nothing?? I mean omg c'mon! I told her point blank countless times she cannot live here. I dunno. Maybe with the shelter taking all their funds is making her feel they have no choice. But I just flat out and told husband I will NOT lose my house no matter how much I love Katie and the kids. And I worry if katie never sees the light when it comes to her husband she will never make the changes necessary to make a better life for herself. Why? Because he'll sabotage every effort she makes. I guess what I'm really so mad about is this..........She knew for a fact she doesn't have enough money for the motel or to feed her kids. So why didn't she just come out and ask to give me the money they DO have as rent until they can get into the shelter? Instead of what it appears to be which is that she and her husband are just assuming we won't be able to turn them away once we get them here. The rent thing I might have been able to handle. At least I could've made husband go to aldi's and buy bulky food to feed them cheap. I have some.....but not nearly enough. Have been buying stuff I could eat (which of course isn't much) while husband and Travis scrape by with what is here. I feel like total sh*t. My house didn't get clean the way I wanted it clean before they got here. We are broke ourselves. And I've got a whole week of pain ahead of me. I don't feel like visiting with the grands who live here, let alone 3 kids who are hyper and excited to meet their grandma and Nana they've been dying to see. Mostly it's the timing. I feel too lousy to even make an attempt to readjust my plans. ugh Got news for husband........any running the kids need to do, he's driving them. Not me. Pray hard, pray very very hard please that there is room in the shelter. I really really need the power of the board on this one. Thanks for letting me spill my guts. I'm off to bed now.