flutterby
Fly away!
I feel like I'm 16 again!
I just reconnected through facebook with my bff from high school. We have been out of contact for 12 years, though neither of us really can remember why.
We emailed back and forth several times and then spent 3 hours on the phone with a "date" to talk again tomorrow evening. It takes a long time to catch up on 12 years. And it's like we're just picking up where we left off.
When I was 15/16 and easy child's dad and I were broke up, I dated a guy, A. He was such a kind, gentle person, but I was in this addictive relationship with ex and ended up back together with ex.
After I divorced my 2nd husband, A and I corresponded a few times, but it drifted off.
After 20 years, I still think about A. And apparently, he thinks about me, too. My friend said that for 20 years, even when he was married, he asked about me. Actually, she said he is still "pining for me". She said he told her that if we had stayed together we'd still be married today. *swoon*
Tomorrow she is sending me his email address and phone number. I know I won't have the nerve to call, but I'm already writing the email in my head. I'm so nervous. And excited. And nervous. Did I mention nervous?
I feel like I'm 16 again. This is the guy that made my knees go weak and would have moved heaven and earth for me, but I was stupid and decided to go back to the guy who beat on me for fun.
I feel all giggly and stupidly happy.
And what's really...weird? spooky? whatever? I've been *completely* ok with being single. I've loved it and didn't feel like I was missing out on anything. Until about 2 weeks ago. The feeling hit me pretty hard that I really wanted someone in my life. But, I really don't want to do the dating thing. BLECK. And more spooky? I had a dream about him 3 nights ago.
Probably, nothing will come of this. But, just thinking about it....tee hee hee.
I just reconnected through facebook with my bff from high school. We have been out of contact for 12 years, though neither of us really can remember why.
We emailed back and forth several times and then spent 3 hours on the phone with a "date" to talk again tomorrow evening. It takes a long time to catch up on 12 years. And it's like we're just picking up where we left off.
When I was 15/16 and easy child's dad and I were broke up, I dated a guy, A. He was such a kind, gentle person, but I was in this addictive relationship with ex and ended up back together with ex.
After I divorced my 2nd husband, A and I corresponded a few times, but it drifted off.
After 20 years, I still think about A. And apparently, he thinks about me, too. My friend said that for 20 years, even when he was married, he asked about me. Actually, she said he is still "pining for me". She said he told her that if we had stayed together we'd still be married today. *swoon*
Tomorrow she is sending me his email address and phone number. I know I won't have the nerve to call, but I'm already writing the email in my head. I'm so nervous. And excited. And nervous. Did I mention nervous?
I feel like I'm 16 again. This is the guy that made my knees go weak and would have moved heaven and earth for me, but I was stupid and decided to go back to the guy who beat on me for fun.
I feel all giggly and stupidly happy.
And what's really...weird? spooky? whatever? I've been *completely* ok with being single. I've loved it and didn't feel like I was missing out on anything. Until about 2 weeks ago. The feeling hit me pretty hard that I really wanted someone in my life. But, I really don't want to do the dating thing. BLECK. And more spooky? I had a dream about him 3 nights ago.
Probably, nothing will come of this. But, just thinking about it....tee hee hee.
