Ok, so we all know that I am having a hell of a time with difficult child and trying to detach from her not only mentally, but physically. I told you all that I would basically just leave my rental when lease is up because that's the only way I could see us both getting out safely and without incident. I know if I got her an eviction, it would take 30 days and in those 30 days, I would fear for my safety because she would be extremely angry. I love difficult child with all of my heart and she really is not a bad person. Our relationship is just truly unhealthy, but I am certain it would improve ions if we didn't have to live together. I will always help her any way I can, but living with each other is only killing me.
So here is my idea. How about if I pretend to move out? Like, actually go through with the motions of moving, so this way she believes it? I really don't have that much stuff to move, so it won't be that difficult. Yes, it's very frustrating that I actually have to do something like this, but hey, if it gives me the peace that I need once and for all, I am willing to do it. I hate that it has to come to this, but I can't do it anymore. Am I suppose to die just to give? I been through enough in life. I just need a good long break so I can recoup.
So here is my idea. How about if I pretend to move out? Like, actually go through with the motions of moving, so this way she believes it? I really don't have that much stuff to move, so it won't be that difficult. Yes, it's very frustrating that I actually have to do something like this, but hey, if it gives me the peace that I need once and for all, I am willing to do it. I hate that it has to come to this, but I can't do it anymore. Am I suppose to die just to give? I been through enough in life. I just need a good long break so I can recoup.