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Our son passed away last Thanksgiving morning
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<blockquote data-quote="lovemysons" data-source="post: 763325" data-attributes="member: 3305"><p>Thank you for your response Copa. I never knew you had experience with the casino after your dad’s death. You have lived an interesting life. </p><p></p><p>The only time I’m truly happy is when I’m around my dear husband when he isn’t mad at me or the grandchildren or the casino. </p><p></p><p>People have suggested to me that I need to get a job at the Casino but I haven’t worked outside the home and husbands businesses since I was 25! I’m not even sure I could hold down a job. Ever since my psychotic breakdown 15 years ago I have had to take medicine that has made me very tired and unmotivated to do much of anything else besides keep the house clean and go to the casino. </p><p></p><p>My cousins forgave me and let me spend more time with them yesterday. They we’re staying at our local casino along with my mom and her boyfriend. But my mom didn’t want to spend time with me at the casino. </p><p></p><p>I don’t believe in myself anymore either. I try and lift dear husband and the grands up but I can’t seem to do the same for myself. </p><p>Sometimes all I look forward to is death because I know I’ll see Jarod again. But I’m not directly suicidal. I just don’t care if I die. </p><p>I smoke A LOT of cigarettes. I do not drink. </p><p></p><p>I miss Jarod so much it hurts. He had bipolar disorder just like me. He was an addict just like me. We even liked the same music and he loved to write just like I used to. He also loved hanging out with me at the casino during times that he lived with us. </p><p></p><p>Part of me died when Jarod died.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="lovemysons, post: 763325, member: 3305"] Thank you for your response Copa. I never knew you had experience with the casino after your dad’s death. You have lived an interesting life. The only time I’m truly happy is when I’m around my dear husband when he isn’t mad at me or the grandchildren or the casino. People have suggested to me that I need to get a job at the Casino but I haven’t worked outside the home and husbands businesses since I was 25! I’m not even sure I could hold down a job. Ever since my psychotic breakdown 15 years ago I have had to take medicine that has made me very tired and unmotivated to do much of anything else besides keep the house clean and go to the casino. My cousins forgave me and let me spend more time with them yesterday. They we’re staying at our local casino along with my mom and her boyfriend. But my mom didn’t want to spend time with me at the casino. I don’t believe in myself anymore either. I try and lift dear husband and the grands up but I can’t seem to do the same for myself. Sometimes all I look forward to is death because I know I’ll see Jarod again. But I’m not directly suicidal. I just don’t care if I die. I smoke A LOT of cigarettes. I do not drink. I miss Jarod so much it hurts. He had bipolar disorder just like me. He was an addict just like me. We even liked the same music and he loved to write just like I used to. He also loved hanging out with me at the casino during times that he lived with us. Part of me died when Jarod died. [/QUOTE]
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