A lot has happened since I last posted about us. In late May my difficult child made a suicide attempt. I cant begin to explain the feelings we have been going through, he is only 9 years old. Since then we have increased his Zyprexa with uneven results Today I have another psychiatrist appointment and I am very hopeful we will get a chance to try a mood stabilizer. I think she is leaning toward Trileptal. We have also been referred to in home counseling and a behavior worker , I guess this is our states wrap around services. I am trying not to get my hopes up because the person who came out seemed so knowledgeable and I keep reminding myself that doesnt mean that the people that will work with us will be also...but I am hopeful . I know I carry a heavy load with my life but it is a choice I made and I think I am good at it most days but I have a personal question. I dont seem to know how to reach out and accept support from anyone outside of my immediate family, even on this WONDERFUL site I tend to stay in factual information although just reading the posts is soo helpful. Does anyone relate to what I am trying to say? Do you have any tips for learning this skill? Or do you think it is Ok to just pull within yourself when times are hard if that is your personality type?