Hi Megan,
You’re in the right place. Feel free to post more of your story and what you’re going through right now. We are used to long posts here!
Mine are grown so i post mainly in Parent Emeritus now, but I feel your pain and there are others here dealing with younger children as well.
I might suggest considering changing to an avatar that doesn’t identify you - most of us here prefer to protect our RL identities.
Welcome. I’m sorry you find yourself here, but glad you found us.