So my coworker/supervisor pulled me aside today and asked me if everything was alright. According to her, several people have come up to her and told her I look sad. I am shocked. Yes, I feel a little down and moody, but I try my hardest to hide it from everyone at work. Once I get to work I'm super professional and I do my best to keep my personal life at home where it belongs. I also feel my best at work. It's when I get home that I crumble. I really do love my job and I would hate to do anything to jeopardize it. I can't believe people can sense my depression. I think I will call psychiatrist and see if I can get in sooner than next month. Even if I have to take time off work to do it, I think it would be best. Also, I've been lagging on looking for a new therapist. My last one was so darn good and I was really bummed when he moved away. I have had such bad luck with therapists (mostly female) that I have been reluctant to search for another. Plus I've been lazy. I think it's time to get therapy before I get too far into this and it's too late. I absolutely CANNOT go to another mental hospital. My kids' dad told me that if I'm admitted even one more time, he is going to go to court and take away both kids permanently. I cannot let that happen. I may have my mental disabilities but I am by far the better parent. Time to get myself the help that I deserve.