hi!!! Ever wanna scream really really loud?? Feels like you have to continuously repeat yourself and it's as if no one is listening???? hmmmm that was me today. love love difficult child's teacher she is amazing, redirects her anxiety works so so hard with-her it's astounding and i am so appreciative for her efforts these past 3 weeks or so now. so today she calls when she heard that they want to put difficult child on thorazine. she says my husband is a pharmacist and i told him and we both were shocked. it's a horrible medication, why don't you go herbal? maybe things are just bothering her, maybe life at home is bothering her, maybe it's her dad? hmmm maybe if you just try different herbal medications and approaches with-her it'll help. ok here i am just like i was last year with-last teacher. they doubt my words, they read a 21 pg report diagnosing severe depressive disorder and Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD), they read the latest letter from doctor stating he believes the behaviors she is exhibiting go hand and hand with-bi polar not otherwise specified, anxiety disorder, adhd, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD). yet i get the why don't you go herbal? have you tried a nutrionist? i get judged...........and i allow it i guess. i listen and say ok what do you think it is? she says well i just see her anxiety i've had BiPolar (BP) kids and it's not her, she does not have bipolar disorder. on and on she went. then finished her sentence by saying well difficult child is missing tests scores because she's gotten in late and missed tests. i said do you know why that is? that is because she can not calm down on certain nights, no matter what i try and do.....then other weeks it's different. she said her high's aren't high enough, her low's aren't low enough for bi polar i've teached inclusion for fourteen years i've seen it all. so i said ok then what would you do besides herbal which is not an option........tried it, been there, ok have i mentioned i quite my job for all of this and have absolutely no money left lost my apt, my pets, basically my life?? not that i resent difficult child i just made some bad financial choices her doctor bills got pd first adn i thought i'd make it.... anyway so that is it everyone looks at me like i'm the one looking to medicate to make it easier instead of putting "real" effort into it...... just frustrating after a while it really is. makes you think your losing it the disorder itself whether she's BiPolar (BP) and that's why she swings back and forth or she's not.