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<blockquote data-quote="ColleenB" data-source="post: 679690" data-attributes="member: 19887"><p>He just woke up after 18 hours of sleeping. </p><p></p><p>We don't know if it's the depression, or if it's relief of having paid off the dealer, or if it's drug induced. </p><p></p><p>I feel like I live in two worlds. One where people are normal, abide by the law, kids go to univ and are happy and healthy..... Then this dark and scary work where my kid has been a dealer and drug user. He told us he even had an apartment where he kept it all. He said he gave up that lease a month ago as he was trying to get out of the "business" ..... It's shocking and horrifying. </p><p></p><p>I feel fake being around my friends who are still in my old world. I used to be one of them, feeling joy and being grateful for my healthy and happy family. We were happy. I was happy. </p><p></p><p>I feel so much sadness now and shame. I don't think I will ever be the same. I feel like the things I used to love, going to friends homes for laughs and dinner parties are not something I even want. My friends have noticed this as I cancel now all the time. </p><p></p><p>I don't want to hear their funny stories about their kids who are still in that wholesome, safe world. Mine is telling me things I never dreamed of. He was not raised in that world, and his comfort in it scares me so much. Will he ever be ok? </p><p></p><p>So so sad for all the lost dreams I had of my sweet smart boy.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="ColleenB, post: 679690, member: 19887"] He just woke up after 18 hours of sleeping. We don't know if it's the depression, or if it's relief of having paid off the dealer, or if it's drug induced. I feel like I live in two worlds. One where people are normal, abide by the law, kids go to univ and are happy and healthy..... Then this dark and scary work where my kid has been a dealer and drug user. He told us he even had an apartment where he kept it all. He said he gave up that lease a month ago as he was trying to get out of the "business" ..... It's shocking and horrifying. I feel fake being around my friends who are still in my old world. I used to be one of them, feeling joy and being grateful for my healthy and happy family. We were happy. I was happy. I feel so much sadness now and shame. I don't think I will ever be the same. I feel like the things I used to love, going to friends homes for laughs and dinner parties are not something I even want. My friends have noticed this as I cancel now all the time. I don't want to hear their funny stories about their kids who are still in that wholesome, safe world. Mine is telling me things I never dreamed of. He was not raised in that world, and his comfort in it scares me so much. Will he ever be ok? So so sad for all the lost dreams I had of my sweet smart boy. [/QUOTE]
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