Quin came to take his medications...he loves watching Donald Trump say "your fired". Earlier today he told me in one of his fits... "You can't handle the truth"... so funny he learned that line like in second grade, and he never saw the movie, only a clip on that part. by the way it was totally out of context, just a blurt. Anyway, I'm posting because he said an interesting/saddish thing. I think it reflects that he is feeling really badly about himself. Also what I have said about all of his worries/anxieties increasing in general...so the fear of Hell is back and he is trying to calm it in any way he can. ON and off he has had these kinds of fears before, trying to sort it all out. We have talks as they come up and I answer just enough to calm the issue because it is so hard to know what he is really hearing from what I say. So, he just told me he is not going to worry about God anymore. I said, What??? He said he will just worry about him when he dies. Now to set the stage, we are not church goers. Other than good night prayers, and that not even routine he doesn't get much info about God because whenever we tried to go to church or join children's programs people couldn't handle it. He will ask me to say a prayer out loud if a NASCAR race is rained out, because he is sure God will stop the rain. He has a children's bible he got for his baptism and from that he decided that it was all about either going to heaven or hell. I think that is what he is talking about. He is feeling like he is so bad he will go to hell. I have told him he has nothing to worry about. I told him that God loves him the way he is and knows he tries his best. He has asked if he can say sorry and I said, yes God always forgives when you feel sorry. (NOT posting this to debate this, I just make it black and white for Quin because he gets to worried about things and it is just too much right now to try to teach anything deeper). I feel badly for him. I have said for years that he is developing a self concept that he is bad and sometimes he even says things that make it seem he is just gong to embrace it because "what's the point". Or he will say, well I am just going to act tough then they will leave me alone. Today he said if he fights back, then people will come around him and so that means it is cool. UGGG We have a lot of work to do. He just randomly came at 10 again and told me what happened with the Apprentice then added, "I'm going to heaven and I will show you.... I am just not even going to believe in God and I will still go to heaven" I told him he has nothing to worry about, God loves him no matter what. He said, well I will show you.. Show me what???? I have NEVER said he is not going to heaven. I NEVER talk about the devil or hell or anything like that. Just not my thing. Poor boy.