Ok, I think there was a rant thread, but to be truthful I did not want to spend the time looking for it, 
I just have to spout off about somethings and know that there is someone somewhere that understands what life can be like with a BiPolar (BP) spouse. I don't know whether to shout or weep. Really, I don't hardly ever do this, but some vent has to spout to keep the pressure from building up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am so POed at my wife, (dasterdly women)
. She has been on a mania for about a week now. Hardly getting any sleep during the day. (she works nights). Gets home at 8:30 am or so, maybe asleep by 9 or 9:30am gets up by 12:30pm. Can't stand to just stay home and maybe work on the laundry, or even think about working on her part of the house, NOOO! She has to run about town and then when it is time for me to get off (6:00pm) she climbs back into bed and expects me to to then help all 5 kids with there homework. Make sure they get baths, wash hair, pick up rooms, etc............ They get out of school at 3:00 middle school and 3:30pm grade school. Does she have them work on their home work like we agreed she would, NOOOO!! Not Fair Dastardly Women - Zaps with super duper Lamictal laser stun gun with a goooey skin absorbent ambilify gel kicker !!!!! At least as of yet this mania has not been a hateful, bad mood, walk on egg shells, don't breath funny, look the wrong way or don't dare to ask a question mania!
To add to the already over the top things that are going on, she is having car issues. Her mini van is on it's last couple of laps. We have plans to try to get her someting after the first of the year or so, well that has been the plan. While on this mania starting this Saturday she has been to car lots, been to look at a new pick up while I am at work, without talking to me, spring it on me while we are busy at the antique shop, and want a bunch of info and for me to talk to the salesman!! I think when she had me call him, I ever so sweetly let him know (by a few grunts and groans) with a nice sweet quiet voice as not to run all the buyers from the antiques store that we where not able at the time to pay a 400-500 dollar car payment!! I gave him my permission to run the check on the credit,( I know that believe it or not we don't have a lot of credit.
*** Always paid cash when I was healthy before we married and then did not get any CC or take on a bill that we could not afford while I was mostly house bound. We just made ends meet on that small disability payment and I kept us taken care of. To keep all the utilities on, clothes on our backs and things for the house was no feat!!!*****
I knew that if I told him know there would be H !!! to pay when I got off, if she did not come up to the shop and gripe at me. ( I would never go to her job the way she comes to mine, Another gripe, ignore).
He never called called back on monday or today, so I know that with already on car loan on my pick up we bought this last March, that the answer would be no. I also did not say a thing about her calling me, her looking and asking without telling me till she was trying to do it, or anything, I sure have a sore tounge though,
I disgress, her car is having brake trouble, it is apparently leaking break fluid and she has hardly any breaks. We put fluid in it Sunday, and still it did not help. They need to at least be bled. She knew she did not need to drive it and she told me so. I took her to work last night, and picked her up this morning. I made arrangements for the kids to ride the bus home all week and told her so. Well at 12:30pm she is out and about in the van, (looking for a second job I think, my 12 year old daughter told me she said she was going to work on her days off from her 1st job. CAN WE SEE WRECK IN THE PICTURE!! She came to the shop to ask for some money( her pay day is the 10th and she was out of her spending money) I gave her some and walked her out to the car. I asked why was she driving, didn't she know she just might have a wreck!! ( raining here too). She said I just did not understand, she had things to do and just had to drive it. ( Nothing that was an emergency) I was worried because she is not sleeping and driving and might get hurt. She got PO'd at me, said I just did not understand her and she did not want to talk. She raced off.
Oldest daughter home at 3:00, no mom at home! I get off and find out that she went to school and got the other 4 from school, endangering them!!!!!! I am beyond livid that she did this. Even more because she called me this morning at 6:30am to remind me to tell them to ride the bus home. Sent letters to the 2 youngest teachers stating so. I just have to say again I can not believe that she endangered our children for no reason at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
She has to work tonight. I got home she is in bed. Food left out on the stove, kids homework not done. Nothing cleaned from supper, no clothes put away, etc... And watch she will want me to take her to work because of the van's brakes! I do not know whether to take her and then hide her keys for tomorrow, or what. I take Levi to his physiatirist an hour and a half away, and if I have her keys she will have to stay home. Of course she will throw a tissey, if I do!!!!!
SOME DAYS I SO HATE B I P O L A R!!! I want a normal wife some days so bad!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok, enough rant, sorry for this, but I do feel a little better letting a little bit of it flow. Did not say anything to the kid, I feel bad if I do that, Did not gripe at her, or snot or snort at all. Just some space on the world wide web filled up and I know where I will hide the keys!!
Thanks !!!!
T. Paul
I think I will hand some pictures in my office and decorate to feel better!!!
I just have to spout off about somethings and know that there is someone somewhere that understands what life can be like with a BiPolar (BP) spouse. I don't know whether to shout or weep. Really, I don't hardly ever do this, but some vent has to spout to keep the pressure from building up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I am so POed at my wife, (dasterdly women)
. She has been on a mania for about a week now. Hardly getting any sleep during the day. (she works nights). Gets home at 8:30 am or so, maybe asleep by 9 or 9:30am gets up by 12:30pm. Can't stand to just stay home and maybe work on the laundry, or even think about working on her part of the house, NOOO! She has to run about town and then when it is time for me to get off (6:00pm) she climbs back into bed and expects me to to then help all 5 kids with there homework. Make sure they get baths, wash hair, pick up rooms, etc............ They get out of school at 3:00 middle school and 3:30pm grade school. Does she have them work on their home work like we agreed she would, NOOOO!! Not Fair Dastardly Women - Zaps with super duper Lamictal laser stun gun with a goooey skin absorbent ambilify gel kicker !!!!! At least as of yet this mania has not been a hateful, bad mood, walk on egg shells, don't breath funny, look the wrong way or don't dare to ask a question mania!To add to the already over the top things that are going on, she is having car issues. Her mini van is on it's last couple of laps. We have plans to try to get her someting after the first of the year or so, well that has been the plan. While on this mania starting this Saturday she has been to car lots, been to look at a new pick up while I am at work, without talking to me, spring it on me while we are busy at the antique shop, and want a bunch of info and for me to talk to the salesman!! I think when she had me call him, I ever so sweetly let him know (by a few grunts and groans) with a nice sweet quiet voice as not to run all the buyers from the antiques store that we where not able at the time to pay a 400-500 dollar car payment!! I gave him my permission to run the check on the credit,( I know that believe it or not we don't have a lot of credit.
*** Always paid cash when I was healthy before we married and then did not get any CC or take on a bill that we could not afford while I was mostly house bound. We just made ends meet on that small disability payment and I kept us taken care of. To keep all the utilities on, clothes on our backs and things for the house was no feat!!!*****
I knew that if I told him know there would be H !!! to pay when I got off, if she did not come up to the shop and gripe at me. ( I would never go to her job the way she comes to mine, Another gripe, ignore).
He never called called back on monday or today, so I know that with already on car loan on my pick up we bought this last March, that the answer would be no. I also did not say a thing about her calling me, her looking and asking without telling me till she was trying to do it, or anything, I sure have a sore tounge though,
I disgress, her car is having brake trouble, it is apparently leaking break fluid and she has hardly any breaks. We put fluid in it Sunday, and still it did not help. They need to at least be bled. She knew she did not need to drive it and she told me so. I took her to work last night, and picked her up this morning. I made arrangements for the kids to ride the bus home all week and told her so. Well at 12:30pm she is out and about in the van, (looking for a second job I think, my 12 year old daughter told me she said she was going to work on her days off from her 1st job. CAN WE SEE WRECK IN THE PICTURE!! She came to the shop to ask for some money( her pay day is the 10th and she was out of her spending money) I gave her some and walked her out to the car. I asked why was she driving, didn't she know she just might have a wreck!! ( raining here too). She said I just did not understand, she had things to do and just had to drive it. ( Nothing that was an emergency) I was worried because she is not sleeping and driving and might get hurt. She got PO'd at me, said I just did not understand her and she did not want to talk. She raced off.
Oldest daughter home at 3:00, no mom at home! I get off and find out that she went to school and got the other 4 from school, endangering them!!!!!! I am beyond livid that she did this. Even more because she called me this morning at 6:30am to remind me to tell them to ride the bus home. Sent letters to the 2 youngest teachers stating so. I just have to say again I can not believe that she endangered our children for no reason at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
She has to work tonight. I got home she is in bed. Food left out on the stove, kids homework not done. Nothing cleaned from supper, no clothes put away, etc... And watch she will want me to take her to work because of the van's brakes! I do not know whether to take her and then hide her keys for tomorrow, or what. I take Levi to his physiatirist an hour and a half away, and if I have her keys she will have to stay home. Of course she will throw a tissey, if I do!!!!!
SOME DAYS I SO HATE B I P O L A R!!! I want a normal wife some days so bad!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok, enough rant, sorry for this, but I do feel a little better letting a little bit of it flow. Did not say anything to the kid, I feel bad if I do that, Did not gripe at her, or snot or snort at all. Just some space on the world wide web filled up and I know where I will hide the keys!!
Thanks !!!!
T. Paul
I think I will hand some pictures in my office and decorate to feel better!!!
there are som many days that I just do not know if I can take another single day of this STUPID disease. I marvel that I am not bald from pulling my hair out, or completely grey headed instead of just a few greys scattered throughout.
, Then again, knowing it was bipolar now, I so wish that maybe we could have had that diagnosis so many years ago. That just maybe things would not have been so rocky and hard. Then again, I am not sure that if I knew that she was Bipolar before I married her if I would have. If I had not I would not have the 5 beautiful little ones I have now. They are what keeps me going and hanging on so many of my days. It is for them that I plod on each and every day. To try to make things better for them, to make them always feel loved and to grow into wonderful adults. That is what keeps me trying to stay sane holding on to my family with a death grip. 
